Sufferin' Succotash!

Blueberry and cream cheese muffins on a lazy afternoon

2012-01-05T22:10:00.001+08:00

I was looking at the index of my recipe book, checking out recipes that include or revolve around "cream cheese". Hmm. GOT IT!

Lo and behold, the birth of my first ever homemade muffin.

I am a cream cheese fanatic. Which is why I was sort of panicking and thinking why there was a cream cheese shortage these past few days. Wala sa aking favorite na suking grocery! Why oh why! I thought I would never be able to make this muffin EVER (Sige na, ako na ang O.A). After how many trips to different groceries, I finally have you in my basket Philadelphia cream cheese. You weren't my first choice really, but you'll do.

So I mixed the ingredients.. Scooped every batter in their respective cupcake liners.. Topped it with blueberry preserves.. Put the muffin tin in the oven & crossed my fingers with the hope that this wouldn't end up like a hockey puck.

15 minutes later, I was rewarded with a soft muffin. What surprised me was how sort of creamy it was. The blueberry preserves were truly a joy to eat! I think I want a cream cheese center though! Now I have to add this to my "Menu".

Virtual Blueberry and cream cheese muffins for everyone! :)

"Time for a cool change"

2011-12-30T02:45:00.049+08:00

BOOM! BANG!

New year's just a few hours away.

As promised, Here's the schmupdated To-do list for year 2012!!!!

*Enter fireworks & Katy Perry singing Firework

1. Time for a wardrobe change this 2012

I was fixing my cabinet when I realized that I had a lot of jeans, a pair of leggings that screams "hello underwear!" in the middle & zero shorts-slash-skirts. It's also full of Tshirts which I wore everyday to work. I am completely sure that I won't be going back to the world of production ever. That's why I need to have clothes that are appropriate for different types of occasion. Plus, I know for a fact that my future boss would not allow me to wear a jeans-and-shirt ensemble to work. Bah-humbug.

2. Save, save, save..

2010 was the year I started earning my own money. 2011 however, was the year I started spending like a rich kid..

Like a rich kid, like a rich kid. Now I'm feeling so fly like a rich kid.

I was blinded by the amount of money in my bank account that POOF! It became Koko crunch! Instead of feeling sorry for myself, I would just think of the future blessings that are in store for me this 2012. Lesson learned. Next please.

3. Finalize "THE" menu

I promise to put into good use the ice cream maker that I got for myself & the oven that my mother gave me. How? This January, I shall start baking every week. I've been checking out my recipe books, googling the internet for interesting recipes of different pastries or desserts that I would want to be a part of my upcoming business. Yessir, I shall take this thing seriously!

I now have a list. I also have all the time in the world. Now all I need are the ingredients. My mind's focused right now on recipes that consists of chocolate and cream cheese. I thought of naming it: CC's chocolate and cream cheese factory! Haha! :) But nah, I'll stick to the name of the person who truly inspired me to bake.

4. Practice writing.

"Mej nyirap na din kasi mils mag-nyinglish nyafter nyollege eh."

That was the language I learned in Production. Thank you to the very queer Production Designers who taught me how to speak.. "nyagalog". (Replace the First letter of the word with the letters NY).

Let me show you how:

In english: Yung director niyo ang dami-daming hinihingi. Sapukin ko yan eh!

In nyagalog: Nyung nyirector niyo nyami-nyaming nyininyingi! Nyopukin mils yan eh!

(mils = me, ko, ako.)

Took me some time to get used to it. Now, I can't get it out of my head.
Aside from practicing my mad english skillz, I think I also need to read more books. I am not sure but I think I have lost the writing style that I used to do back in college. (Or siguro nag-mature lang ako! NOT! Haha!) INSPIRATION, PLEASE COME TO ME VIA THE BOOKS I'D LIKE TO READ.

5. Design even more shirts.

The TV Series "How to make it in America" inspired me to make more designs! Ofcourse, it will still be cartoon-ish designs. Nothing emo, punk or gangstah!

6. Try to become a better person.

That's what I do every year. I TRY.

Examples: Minimize the urge to say nasty stuff out of the blue.. Attend mass every Sunday.. Give without expectations of receiving anything.. Ya know. The usual.

And before I forget..

7. Lose the extra pounds.

I have become an eating machine at work. I want to start a healthy again. No to vegetables, less fastfood! Iba pala!

Happy & blessed new year everyone! Cheers! :)

I claim it!!!

2011-12-28T00:16:00.000+08:00

“Dreams are like stars...you may never touch them, but if you follow them they will lead you to your destiny"

Now that I have all the free time I need, I have been thinking a lot lately about the things that I want to do before I die. So far I have only come up with 5. Let's see..

1. Submit an entry (and hopefully win) in the Carlos Palanca Memorial Awards for Literature
2. Establish my very own Made-to-Order Baking business
3. Have our house in Pasig renovated (which will cost probably around 500K to a million??)
4. Come up with our own "save the date" video (as if papakasal na! HAHA! I recently thought of a clever idea or theme for a video. Oo clever siya para sa akin! I am excited. Although it'd cost a lot of money. Clue: Films. Yun na!)
5. Travel around the world.

Downers are everywhere. However, I am glad that somehow, everyone my life has been supportive of my decisions. Dream BIG. That's what I want to do this year :)

Happy Pre-Christmas!

2011-12-23T16:51:00.001+08:00

It's the most wonderful time of the year...

I feel super blessed lately. Despite the fact that I am now currently unemployed with no idea, whatsoever as to what I really want in life, I am thankful. Why? Because I am surrounded with a few wonderful people that I know will be there for me until the end of my youthful days. (I mentioned this in my other post & I am saying it again! I LOVE YOU PEOPLE! My mom, my friends, my partner.. speech? ahaha!)

And here are some of the reasons too as to why I feel happy.. Take note: Material girl coming in.

* I recently joined the Analog soul shirt design contest. It was for their "Humor Collection", and knowing that I am the queen of corn (as my friends would call me), I immediately designed.

Number of likes and basehan. Oh no, I am doomed.

After 1 week and 80+ likes, I accepted defeat. Others had 200+ likes (Kayo nang may maraming kaibigan at kamag-anak! Kidding! Huwag magalit!) But fate wanted me to tick off the "design a shirt" part off my list of 2011 goals. In the end, I wasn't a part of the top 5 with the most likes, but my designs were still chosen by the company itself. Wow.

My heart would do little dances if I were to actually see a person wear a shirt with my design on it :)

* As I have mentioned in my previous post, I am selling brownies. I got hooked to these fudgy little cakes that I decided to share the addiction and make some profit as well! So far, I was able to bake and sell 400 pieces of brownies to officemates and relatives.

I chose the color powder blue. Reminded me of tiffany & co. Sosy!

Topped it with sliced almonds! YAMMY! Haha!

I made this one for PJ. With hearts syempre! Mush. Cheese. Yes, that's us.

After spending how many hours in the kitchen during the wee hours in the morning (I am the midnight baker), I realized that it was time that I rewarded myself with these cute and colorful measuring cups! Now, baking will even be more fun! I am a big fan of color!

* Two items from my christmas wishlist are now mine!

One's from my monita and the other from the most important person in my life (aka. ME! HAHA! Maka-sarili pala!) Yey! I can now have an organized life this 2012. I will also start making my own doodles christmas envelopes for my inaanaks. Creativity bomb!

The only thing that's missing is an even bigger oven. I really want a purple one similar to what Caroline and Max got in the show Two Broke Girls. But a simple one would do. :)

My farewell letter

2011-12-08T14:49:00.000+08:00

Hey girl, Whatcha doin'? Hey girl, where you going? Who's that girl.. Who's that girl..

It's only me. Not Jess.

After how many weeks, I finally had the courage to talk to my bosses and say what my heart wanted to say. The fear subsided when they told me that they were happy for me because they know that I will be following my dream and do the things that inspire me.

Whew!

I guess it was hard for me to say farewell because I owe a lot to them. They were the first ones to hire me despite the fact that I only applied online (According to them, the resume attached to my email didn't have any picture.) Hehe. Silly me!

So today, I say goodbye to my fellow ADSP people who have been everything to me for the past 1 year & 7 months. I know we all had our happy times. Sometimes we tend to get on each others nerves for loads of reasons. But I still treasure you guys dearly. You taught me a lot. I couldn't even find the right words to say so I could really express how I am feeling right now.

But I want you guys to know that I am:

Thankful

Happy

Lucky

Blessed

to have met you guys. Thank you for making me feel stronger. For being like my 2nd family. And for just being there to laugh or to cry with.

I will no longer be around by year 2012 but I will still be in the office until December 19, 2011. So get ready. I still have a lot of corny jokes up my sleeve. Haha!

Hohoho!

2011-12-06T14:53:00.002+08:00

"Christmas time is near. It's also the day when I turn a year older & friends start texting me birthday and happy holiday greetings with the "ang tanda mo na!" line included."

At first, I wasn't planning on making a wishlist. Maybe because I didn't really have any material object in mind. I got the electric oven I always wanted.. & the ice cream maker that doesn't seem to freeze any ice cream...

But then again, I still want a few things in life that hopefully my friends or relatives could give me. Nothing's wrong with wishing.. Wishes do come true right?

1. A planner. (No starbucks planner please!)

I don't have anything against their planner. If I could get it for free just by buying coffee for the staff, agency & client.. Then hurrah! But my ideal planner is either:

a moleskine peanuts diary (time to ambag ambag my friends!)

or a planner similar to this one. It's a very pa-cute planner which has lots of doodles.

Very me. Haha!

2. Valrhona cocoa powder

I would like to try making brownies with it! A lot of pastry chefs recommend this because of the strong chocolatey kick it add to recipes. Available at Sweet Craft along Boni Ave. Only P360.00 for 250g or P630.00 for 500g. Hihihi!

3. A Tovolo mixing spoon

Right now, I am obsessed with cooking stuff.

4. A Set of Staedtler Triplus Fineliner pens.

These are my partners in crime when I am bored and have nothing else to do but doodle.

*There's also nothing wrong with a large bag of Gold Medal Flour, White sugar, a dozen eggs & a week's supply of butter! Hahaha!

I am starting my small baking business by the way!

After 4 brownie baking attempts, I finally found the perfect brownie recipe. So far, people have tasted it and will order for Christmas! Yay for the blessings! :) I will post pictures as soon as I've finished baking another batch and taking sample food shots for all you people to see.

So far I couldnt think of anything else that I'd like. I guess somehow, I am contented with all the things I have. Besides, being around the people I love is enough to make me feel that I am truly blessed. Cheesy but true.

Have a happy December everyone! :)

Maybe this is a sign..

2011-11-23T13:43:00.000+08:00

"Like a P.A, Like a P.A.. Now I'm feeling so fly like a P.A"

When I heard that the upcoming project will push through & that the Pre-Production meeting would start next week, something inside of me started to change. I started seeing the light and sort of became happy again. Why? I dont really know. Maybe because I get to work with a different set of people here. And that the project is connected to something that I love doing lately!

I can't wait!!!

This lead me to the thought that I might stay a while (Gulo ko right?). I would inform them that I still plan on leaving but Im still unsure when that day would be. I'll still ask for Guidance from Papa God. And hope that everything would turn out to where and how they are supposed to be :)

When the going gets tough..

2011-11-17T16:24:00.000+08:00

You call all your best girl friends & stuff yourselves with lots of good food over a series of laughs..

Twas the perfect place for lotsa talking and laughing

Today, I am thankful for having a bunch of insane but true friends. When I am feeling depressed over work or the lack of it, I call them up and.. there they are meeting up with me during their break time or after office hours.

Our "Almost" Pigout session.

And so I shall give back and make them feel "queen-ish" on their special day.

To cut the blog short, they make me feel totally blessed. :)

The Penthouse Photowalk

2011-11-16T15:48:00.000+08:00

I wanted to make the day more Productive by actually doing something rather than sitting all day and visiting all the websites that I could in a span of 8 hours..

So I walked around our office & took pictures. We're located at the Penthouse meaning we are one with the skies and the sun.

When the weather is sunny and happy, we usually have our lunch outside. Hello chairs & office cabana!

Just look at the TV Group's colorful schedule board. Sana may nakasulat eh no? Haha! :))

I love the TV Group's room! It's more homey compared to our area.

Again, I take to the outside world. This one's the stress relieving area. One where people can sit, light their cigarettes & eventually shorten their lifespan. Ang mean ko :|

Splattered soy sauce on my shoes. Ergo the tissue. Come on!!! Absorb all the toyo!

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Times like this makes me want to just go on a vacation & rest instead of feeling all unproductive. I sometimes feel as if I am no longer putting my brain into good use anymore compared to when I was still in school..

The perfect chill place would be Tagaytay. We went there a couple of weeks ago with Pj's family, specifically in Taal Vista Hotel. I'd like to stay there even just for a night. Their buffet was good!

Cutest baby alive! Cadiepot!

Decisions.. Decisions..

2011-11-15T16:47:00.000+08:00

I wanted to speak while typing (which would be a bit awkward but I love the show Awkward so there. Did I even make any sense?) but this mochi ball is stuck in my throat so never mind. What a way to start the entry!

Aloha!

Lately, I've been thinking of something that I know would lead me to what I've been longing for..

Freedom.. And lots of cash. Haha!

I feel as if I'm sounding like a broken record already but I'll say it again. I am no longer inspired with my work. My mother called me the other day and told me that she went to visit the Manghuhula (Fortune Teller).

"Alam mo, hindi na masaya ang anak mo sa trabaho niya ngayon"

Mom was shocked. She never even mentioned anything to her and yet she knew. Was I really that obvious? The fortune teller also advised mom to tell me to pursue whatever it is that I am planning on doing next year. That she sees me working abroad, preferrably in a white man's country. Creepy shit.

Yes, resignation is the key. But I never really thought that it'd be so hard!!! I dont even know when I should talk to my bosses & what my reason would be for leaving aside from the fact that I dont like working as a Production Assistant anymore.

Mom told me to resign when I am sure that I have another job waiting for me. But I told her, I just want to have my freedom back even for only a month, try soul searching or doing things written in my to-do list.. and then when I feel totally fulfilled, I'll start working again :) Somewhere wherein our paychecks are not on a per-project basis. Meaning, not in production. Haha! (Seryoso ang hirap. Lalo na kapag walang project. Deym!!!)

Breathe in.. Breathe out..

Maybe I find it hard to leave because I've grown close to the people in here. From the receptionist, the accounting.. etcetera. It's like leaving your family. But I have to make a decision. So wish me luck people!

Eat & be merry

2011-11-14T14:54:00.001+08:00

Presenting...

My cookbook collection.

All about ice cream making:

1. The Perfect Scoop by David Lebovitz

2. Jeni's Splendid Ice Creams at home by Jeni Britton Bauer (My fave!!!)

3. Ben & Jerry's Homemade Ice cream and Dessert book by Ben Cohen & Jerry Greenfield

Bake bake bake! :

1. I love Macarons by Hisako Ogita

2. The Birthday cake book by Fiona Cairns (She's the Royal Wedding Cake maker!!)

3. Flour by Joanne Chang

Others:

1. I hate to cook book by Peg Bracken

2. The Adobo book (Lots of different versions of the ultimate Filipino favorite.)

I've read them all and I will start making a list of what I want to make, cook or bake.

It'll be a weekend cook off! Yey for Pigout time!

Ok. Bye.

My first attempt on making ice cream

2011-11-09T16:00:00.003+08:00

"There's no such thing as a bad batch of home-made ice cream" - Ben & Jerry

I would like to think of that saying whenever I have a spoonful of the ice cream I made last night. The ice cream maker I ordered from Ebay a few months ago finally arrived! All the way from USA!
*Applause!*

What better way to celebrate it's homecoming than by making a batch of milk chocolate ice cream! I followed the recipe from my favorite ice cream book. When all was done, the author mentioned that the mixture must be chilled for about 30 minutes. Being the overly-excited one, I just chilled it for about 15 mins and dumped all inside the ice cream maker's bowl.

Sadly, It didn't freeze.

I checked out youtube videos & mine wasn't even near any of their frozen delights.

Lesson learned, follow instructions.

I brought it to the office today & officemates got a spoonful each. It's too rich and pudding-ish that two spoonfuls are enough to satisfy your craving for something sweet.

It was literally death by chocolate.

Plus add some soggy cornflakes inside.

Mistakes happen. Which is why I will try again, a different flavor this time.

Peanut butter & Jelly?

Lemon?

Salted Butter Caramel?

Now I shall go to our pantry and have another round of my frozen chocolate pudding. Yum-oh!

Holiday = Happy day

2011-11-04T15:09:00.002+08:00

"So two day lang tayong pumasok this week right? Cool."

Hello there! Happy Friday! And you thought the long weekend's over? Pwes, meron pa ulit! One more round of rest and relaxation!

Spent the long weekend like this yo:

The Birthday party! And although I haven't mastered the art of mingling yet, I did enjoy. :) It made me miss my friends though. Boo hoo.

I love No-Bake desserts! We made peanut butter squares the other day.

My family were the "judges". The verdict? Ubos. Simot. Haha!

These taste like Reese's but better! :)

The rest of the long weekend was spent lying on my bed and just watching my favorite series. Boring ba (parang yung entry na ito)? Well, twas the best gift I could give myself. And i'll do it all over again this weekend! No one can stop meee!

Winner nga pala ang Korean Caramel Icecream na ito.

Actually, lahat ng Korean ice creams, WINNER!

Paranormal Activity 3

2011-10-26T13:06:00.002+08:00

"Parang-normal activity"

That was my comment when I saw "Paranormal Activity 1" two years ago.

Paranormal 2 didn't scare the crap out me of either (ok, maybe just a little bit). But since I wanted to know how all that "mumu" thing going on began, I watched Paranormal Activity 3 last Sunday. I was thinking, I hope it'd be worth the 200 pesos!

Summary? Up to now, I still get scared that there might be a Toby beside my bed. No kidding! Sobrang nakakagulat! And who even thought of that panning "electric fan contraption" effect was a genius. Lagi akong kinakabahan everytime the camera would pan on the other side.

One comment though: I was wondering why the quality of the footages were good & clear compared to the wedding videos shown in the guy's computer? HD!!! :)) (That's just me trying to forget the creepy person who must not be named. Though shall not be a spoiler)

Oh! And I had the same Teddy Ruxpin toy when I was a child. I loved that singing bear!

Anyway, to cut the story short, WATCH PARANORMAL 3!!! Sa cinema okay?! Worth it!
Now I have to make my 10 million pesos wish list. Will post it maybe tamaraaa!

2011-10-20T15:53:00.000+08:00

I have to bid goodbye to one of my goals before year 2011 ends..

"Have at least 100k in my bank account"

I dont know what has gotten into me, but come mid september, I was feeling bankrupt due to my unstoppable shopping sprees. I checked my balance and said to myself "kaya pa yan!". And now, I am here.. Nowhere near my goal. Gosh abelgosh.

Hindi naman sa mukhang pera. It's just that I want to be assured that whatever happens, I can support myself at an early age. Labo ba? Well, right after college, I've never gotten any financial help from my parents. And I love them for doing that because it made me become more independent. (ang serious no? haha!) Oh. But there's no reason to be all grumpy about this. There's always next year! :)

Okay para naman may photo ang blog ko.. Here's my blog's photo of the day!!!

Baguio, 2011

Tv Group member for a day.

2011-10-18T21:22:00.001+08:00

"Pixel + Maximum" = PIXMA.

Oh, so that's the meaning behind the name of Canon's Printer.
I attended an event held by Canon at the SM Annex. Twas for the launch of their new collection of Canon Pixma printers.

Why hello there Per Andre Hoffmann, Jo Avila & Jun Miranda.

How I wish Paco Guerrero was one of the Ambassadors too! He'd be perfect!

It felt different being a part of the staff to cover this event for a certain network. Why?
I am a TVC girl. I am used to having long shooting days with little hours of sitting down. It's all about the legwork baby! But during the event, we just sat and let the boys do all the shooting. We were simply there to be their guide.

But I like change. What I liked about it was that it wasn't so stressful. Plus lots of freebies! :D We even won a timex watch! Hooray!

"The early bird gets the Timex watch"

I also noticed that a lot of bloggers were invited to attend the event. Hmm. It seems interesting. Now, how do I get to be a part of those bloggers group inc? I want to be invited too! (Inggitera! LOL)

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We still do not have any projects for the month of October.
All thanks to The Ad Congress! So walang kumikitang kabuhayan for this month ya'll! Which is why I'm thinking of pursuing my sideline of baking + ice cream making. AND! I am making leche flan. I will try to perfect the recipe first and when I feel as if it's finally worth selling, GO! Llanera shopping ako! :))

I made one last week. According to my boss, a good leche flan "melts in your mouth". So when I got home, I tried the leche flan once again &.... It does kind of melt in the mouth. OOOOHHH! My leche flan peg would be the one from Conti's. Super yummy! One of our favorite Offline/Online Interlock desserts!

Will make one this Friday for our Company outing. Here's to hoping that it'd end up fabulous and would tickle the taste buds of my bosses. :)

The Monday Summary

2011-10-11T18:21:00.000+08:00

Dear Lucy,
I woke up still disappointed with the fact that our first ever attempt on making marshmallows turned out to be a failure. How could the syrup turn out like candy when it reached the required temperature? Oh yeah. We forgot to include the corn syrup.

I didn’t want to go to sleep last Sunday night without the assurance that:
1. The candy thermometer works.
2. If i follow the recipe, I will achieve the right syrup consistency.

I tried.. I put on some water, corn syrup and sugar on the saucepan. Waited for the candy thermometer to reach 236 F.. And voila! The perfect syrup! (No pictures. Was too busy. :P)
Now I can go to sleep.

Come Monday morning, I prepared all the required ingredients. Cleaned up my all my cooking utensils and hoped that finally, it would fluff up like magic. You might be thinking, why would I want to make my own marshmallows when I could just buy from the grocery? Simple.

I want to learn.

Besides, I’d want to experiment using them on the Brown Butter rice krispy treats that I’d be making for the love of my life. So it’s worth it.

Fast forward to my Monday attempt.
I was ready. Syrup’s done. Mixer’s running. And there I poured the smokin’ hot sugary syrup. The smile on my face eventually turned into a sad clown face when the mixture didn’t fluff up after 10 minutes. It ended up looking like a caramel sauce instead. ~~WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?~~

But I haven’t given up just yet!!! I just couldn’t! I bought a stand mixer just so I could make marshmallows and I won’t stop until I get it right.

I tried a different recipe, one where egg whites were included. Followed the instructions.. And 10 minutes later, my stand mixer was whisking this baby..

All hail the perfect marshmallow recipe!!!! I can now move on to making my batch of Rice krispy treats!

One minor setback, I think I did something wrong here, for the marshmallow fluff, well.. Ended up not settling and turned out to be just a fluff. (Maybe the wrong choice of gelatin mix). Anyway, I used it to make the treats and all ended up soggy. But still pretty good if you’re not choosy and is into rice pudding. Ha ha!

In the end, amidst all the “imperfections” of the dished I made. I can say that I am happy. :) Next recipe please!

Dear Lucy.

2011-09-30T16:15:00.001+08:00

I was thinking of what to name my "future business" the other day. I haven't actually tried baking nor making ice cream yet (hello to non-existent oven & ice cream maker.. both are on it's way though!) but I just want to get the name thing over with. I came up with lots of names that are.. Hohum, BORING. Just then, childhood memories popped into my head.

Me, beside my lola who was patiently mixing the giant pan full of home made ube. Or that time she handed me a plate full of pudding which I swear is the best ever that I've tasted up to now. Or me sneaking into her room and seeing her watch cooking shows with an index card and pencil in her hand. She had this box full of those index cards with lots of recipes written on them. And then I realized one thing. Why not name it after the person who inspired me the most?

"Lucy".

Somehow hearing that name all over again is like music to my ears. It'd be like she never left this planet.
Im crossing my fingers, hoping that I could cook or bake well just like her. :)

What the fudge?

2011-09-19T16:30:00.000+08:00

Taking this ice cream making thing seriously. Do you think the name "What the fudge?!" sounds alright?
I've been doing some research and found out that there are a lot of newly opened ice cream businesses.
Ofcourse I am scared. Who am I to compete with them right?

But then I realized that I am Camille Kristine Cruz.
I am God's servant and powerful champion. (My favorite line from The Feast! Yay!)
Ergo, I will succeed in doing what I want to do especially since well..
Im doing something that I love.. (To do and eat.) <3

October will be the month when my ice cream maker arrives.
It will also be the month wherein I'd start making different flavors, taste-test month!
First on my list is dark chocolate ice cream. YUM! I'll be giving pints of free samples to random people who I know love Dark chocolate. Hope they'll like it. Yii.

Here's to the success of my future business. My bag is now filled with all sorts of Entrepreneur magazines. Haha! :)

2011-09-01T19:08:00.000+08:00

I am back mainly because I want to write about this "Person" whom I have dreamt about for how many days already. He looks like Matty Mckibben. Dreamy eyes and all. If you watch the TV Series "Awkward", then you know what I am talking about. WHAT DOES IT MEAN SALAMIN?

Ka-bother. Haha!
Yun lang poez.

Speaking of dreams..
Been busy buying books about ice cream making lately. And yes, I also ordered an ice cream maker online. And now people here think I am addicted to Ice cream. NOT!

It all started when I got a hold of this fantastic book about ice cream making and the rest is history. Now, I am planning on starting my business at home. I will be your personal ice cream maker and I will come up with a name that would stick to people's heads like some sort of sickness. (LABO!)

I am truly excited!!! Order kayo ha! Nag-promote na pala. Ewan. :))

Hello fooda-licious week that passed by

2011-08-03T16:48:00.001+08:00

It never crossed my mind that I would end up complaining about my weight.

I used to be a skinny bitch. Scratch that, skinny school girl lang.
Come 3rd year, during my OJT, my production managers told me:

"Pag nag-production ka, HA! Tignan lang natin. Mawawala yang kapayatan mo"

I laughed it off. Mainly because I ate a lot during college and still, I did not get fat!

(My daily meals consisted of Siomai, Lugaw, Kwek kwek, Squid ball, Gulaman & Footlong rice fresh from the streets of UST. Bahaha!)

Then came graduation. I needed a job. Production was my first choice. And months later..

BOOM! "Uhh. Patay tayo diyan. Ayaw na masara ng pantalon ko. Oh noes!"

Haba ng introduction no? HAHA! I just love to eat! Presenting.. Last week's food-a-thon!

Thanks to my boss, we discovered the wonderful world of Mr. Jones. It's a resto which reminds me of those old school diners. Here we had the i forgot what it's called burger and fries. Yum! I never wanted to eat Mcdo or Jollibee burgers after this encounter..

Meet my lunch. Available at your suking tindahan.

Yes, I tend to be weight conscious at times.

Oh yogurt. It's never too late to try all the yogurt places in town!

I didn't like my yogurt's flavor though.

I'd still go for either White hat, Qoola or Red Mango :)

And yet another Mr. Jones date! Meet our truffled Mac and Cheese...

The one they call "Two dogs in a blanket"...

..And my personal fave,their to die for milkshakes! :D So worth the 250 pesos. I plan on trying all flavors before the year ends!

And when rainy afternoons strike, my boss makes pancakes. We added a little twist..

Say hello to choco baby filled pancakes! Plus 7-11's Choco loco.

But nothing beats my boss's killer Hot choco! Winner lalo na when served to ad agency people. I love hearing their reactions! haha! "WINNER!" "PAMATAY!"

I was never a starbucks girl. Mainly because I didn't have the budget for it.

But Since I do now, KAPEEEEE! I like their Signature Hot choco and

strawberries and cream with soy.

Not in picture were Burger Ave's Garlic cream cheese burgers, Wendy's Taco Salad..

I can't help it! Eating is just so heavenly! :D Happy eating guys!

2011-07-25T16:33:00.001+08:00

Randoms! Here we go!

I dream of being able to write a novel and have it published abroad. New york! Okay so I got inspired with Samantha Sotto's story. On how her book got published in NY, concrete jungle where dreams are made of :)

But I really do dream of being able to write a novel. Kaso wish ko lang din na ma-overcome ang katamaran kong magbasa! Haha! :)) I only get to write whenever I feel inspired. Like the short story I wrote for Sir Eros' Atalia's class which won 2nd place in Gawad Ustetika. (Yahoo! Yobong). The way he taught us was not only funny, but truly inspiring. We get to brainstorm and share our thoughts in his class. I really enjoyed it! He is an effective teacher, which is why most of us came up with creative stories! Release your inner writer people!

So from now on I will add to my Mid Year's Resolution: Start reading books!

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No sched means no work. It also means: FREEDOOOOOM! Which is why Purds and I went to Tagaytay yesterday after mass. Just cos we felt like going! Haha! I will bombard you with photos! 5 photos! Handame!

On our waaaaay! Singing and dancing on our seats.

We try hard to smile for the camera even while he's driving.

Almost there mateys! Tulog muna ko. ZZZZ.

We are finally here. Yogurt anyone??

Koi fishies! Halloo! We shall feed you!

The good news is, our production house will celebrate our christmas party in bangkok! All expenses paid. Yey! Shopping and food trip. Kawawa nanaman ang waist line ko nito.

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There's one incident that pissed me off this week. For my safety (akala papatayin! haha!), I won't mention names nor what happened. Clue: Editing + Students. Yun na!

Nay for you people. The thing we enjoyed the most during college was that even if all our subjects were eating up our time due to countless number of projects, we still manage to stick together as a team and try to finish every single project ourselves. Yep. Without help from anyone.

Well I do hope they get to realize that it's just their 3rd year and that there's so much more to come when they reach 4th year. Goodluck with media law kids, especially to mr. "director" who shoots at 60 fps and wonders why his video is suddenly all slow mo. :)

Okay. back to watching Modern Family! Love that series! I love Cameron Tucker but I wanna call him campbell. :D Lala. Whoop. I almost forgot about my Mid year resolution.. Hihi. I shall read a book too!

After 1 year...

2011-07-21T15:21:00.001+08:00

We have no schedule today. Actually, we haven't got any schedule for the the whole week! It'd seem scary for most freelance production people but I'd like to think of it as God's way of telling me:

"Relax. Watch a movie!"

So I did what I thought God wanted me to do. I relaxed. It's nice waking up knowing that you've got nothing to do for the day. Compared to the past months wherein we'd prepare every single day for a schedule. This is the life! AHHHHH. But I'm hoping that God is also preparing a BIG Project for us too. Cos no project means no sweldurrr. And that's just sad. :-( Hihi.

And since we have nothing to do today. My co-production assistant, Nikka, & I decided to do another "What's in my bag" blog. We made one last year and we wanted to see how our bagahe sa buhay have changed.

Goodbye 2010 contents!

And now presenting... What's inside a production assistant's bag

the 2011 edition!

Now it's time to reveal the cause of my bag's kabigatan!

HEAVVVVY!

Too tamad to even put numbers. As you can see.. I have to replace my brush na! Haha! Grabe. Ngayon ko lang na-realize na pwede na kami mag-celebrate ng anniversary ng brush na ito!

Hmm.. Here's my collection of black staedtler pens (I buy two per project. One for me and for all the director's out there who do not bring a ballpen during meetings)

I like this super cute bunny USB aka USB ng bayan! For all my co production staff who have no USB. Go. Borrow lang. I'll share the viruses too!

Say hello to my house keys who's currently bonding with our office's key. Yes I have the key to the office! Pwedeng pumasok everytime I want. NOT! :))

I upgraded my makeup. Bodyshop Concealer, Etude liptint, Mac Studio fix (c/o our makeup artist. Yey freebies!), Mario Badescu special healing loose powder and carmex lipbalm.

Changed perfume too. Goodbye F&H perfume. Im loving my new incanto "charms" perfume eh. Hee. Yet another freebie, this time from the guy I love toe toe toe much!

I have this sickness of buying notebooks even when I know I dont need a new one yet. Found these "mala-moleskine" type notebooks. Wala pang sulat. But I'll start jotting down notes when our next project arrives.

Hello Lumix FX150. Hello Itouch 4th gen. Hello red BB. Hello fibrella. Hello same old brand new pink organizer filled with receipts. Hello undercover case. and hello wallet from singapore! I miss my disney wallet though. Kaso ang kapal. Dun ko na-realize na si disney wallet pala ang main reason bakit mabigay ang bag ko. Puno kasi.. ng BARYA! Haha!

So there you have it guys. A what's in my bag blog. So many changes. So little time. And up to now I still can't believe that I can now manage to buy myself these things.

Gotta thank the Big Guy up there for all the blessings. :-)

Goals Schmoals

2011-07-12T11:39:00.000+08:00

Every year, I make it a point to write down things that must be done before the year ends.
I call it "TO DO LIST". Not! Mine is very unique. It's so unique, a production team used is as their film's title.
It's called:

THE BUCKET LIST. (Asa pang totoo sinasabi ko right?)

Here are a few of the things i've thought if doing before the year 2011 ends:

1. Have around 100k or more in my savings account.
2. Buy a pair of wedges. (Wasn't a fan of em. But let's see.)
3. Learn how to drive (Even if I don't have my own car yet!)
4. Buy a Macbook Pro (If I do, maybe ticking off #1 would be quite impossible)
5. VACATION! Out of the country please.
6. Find out my true calling.

Still thinking of crazy things to do this year. Something new. Something wacky. Something that would spell FEARS. Yes, i will now try to face my fears.

Our DOP Jimmy Wong sitting on the Magnum

Goodbye! :-)

Someone Like You

2011-07-05T15:15:00.002+08:00

The other night, I felt as if I was sooo drunk. But I wasn't.

I was just so tired with work that I ended up having the "masandal-tulog" sickness.

PJ drove me home (like what he always does. He just wants to make sure that I get home safe every single day).

He knew I was really tired cause he heard me snore like never before.

Ha ha! When we got to our house, He woke me up..

Me being the "drunken one" didn't even have the strength to move.

So he got my keys, opened the gate.. walked me to my room
& Guided me until I reached my bed.

I felt him untying my shoelaces.. Removed my shoes..
And kissed me goodnight.

I was in dream land.

When I woke up, I saw my room. My used to be sofa cluttered with bags and clothes were now neatly arranged. I was tucked in my blanket. And probably had the best sleep in my entire life.

I've told my mom dozens of stories about Pj.

Like how he spends an entire night with me doing laundry.

Or how he goes to the grocery with me whenever I needed to.

When I needed a ride to the office just cause I didn't want to get crazy with the amazons in the MRT..

He was there. He's always there. He even transferred to our office just so he knows that he's here for me whenever I'd go bonkers due to loads of work...

I love him.

And my family does too.

First time I ever heard my Lola and Mom say that the guy I have right now..

Is a keeper.

At dapat daw magpakabait ako, wag magloko o kaya wag siyang saktan...

Villain ba me? Haha! :)

And yes.. Amidst all the problems that I have right now. I can say..

That I am truly Happy :)

Oh the perks of having no scheds!

2011-07-04T09:24:00.000+08:00

Oh hello weekend!

Hello Satuday and Sunday!

Yes!!!

Made the most out of it by ehem.. "Rewarding" thy self with things I "needed".

1. Camera Case

I wanted to protect my lumix so off to the mall I went to find the perfect camera case.. Fate led me to this quirky store (The name of the store was quirks by the way) and I ended up buying this "undercover gadget sleeve". Too cool! Mukhang Luma na agad at first sight. Hahaha! Now you may rest in peace dear camera. :)

2. Forever 21 Mary Janes

I was never really into Forever 21. I entered that store for how many times already and ended up buying nothing. But this Sunday was different. I learned to appreciate the price of their items after the Zara and Topshop experience. Mahal dudes. I'm like what the.. Mayaman me?? Now I am glad that this brand exists. Hello girly shoes! I shall wear you during Interlocks! :D

Busy week once again. Darn. We have a shoot this coming saturday. Dear weather, please try to get along with us. This project's been postponed for almost two months already. I wanna get this done and over with. Let's move on please! :D

A blog based on tweets

2011-07-01T16:29:00.001+08:00

May 24, 2011: "Jappy mercado is the cutest little boy ever!!! :D kyoooot!"

Meet the super duper cute and super professional kid talent... JAPPY! He's the vaseline Uno Dos Tres kid and he is super adorable! I love it when he hugs me. Pedo pala! :))

May 25, 2011: "Ang galing ni propsman fritz! Once upon a bubbles!"

The "Kasing galing pero di sing mahal" Propsman.. Fritz Delos Angeles. Ang dahilan kung bakit ang ganda ng kinakalabasan ng mga effects etcetera kapag shoot, thanks to his gizmos. We've worked with him for 3 projects already and I must say.. We are truly impressed! Ikaw na ang nagpa baha ng studio at nagpabula sa Brgy Sitio Maysawa.

May 25, 2011: "Kapag good ang take sa shoot, director's usually say "mark!". But not direk onat.
He says "tarush" instead! XD

The guy on the right side wearing the black jacket is Direk Onat. The Director of "The Buzz". We find him tarush too. Why? Laughtrip ang mga hirit. Magaling na director. Simple pero creative. And loves Starbuck's White Hot mocha decaf, non-fat, no whip.. Basta tarush siyuh!

June 2, 2011: "Libreng sun bathing! Woohoo!"

We had a 2 day shoot last June 3 & 4 at this very famous mountain-slash-location for TVC at Tanay Rizal. Twas for Del One rinse. We were glad to have the perfect sunny weather. Ilang itlog ang inalay para lang matuloy ang shoot na ito dahil alam mo na.. Tag-ulan na! Memorable shoot. Simply memorable.

Masusukat mo ang powers mo kapag location ang shoot. Especially if more than one shooting day.

June 12, 2011: "Mukhang fun naman itong project na to since makukulit ang mga katrabaho namin.

Let's see :)"

Oliver and Ms. Jack are our new freelance workmates for our next project. They are definitely older. And crazier. I love em! :D

June 16, 2011: "I am confused. Pentax, Canon or Lumix? :P I need a sign! Actually, I need reviews.."

I thought it was time to let go of my old digicam and upgrade to a much better model. Read about a hundred reviews and finally, I've made my decision.. Lumix it is! Eversince my Ninong introduced me to this camera, i've been a fan. Cool ng scene modes. Plus there's manual mode, meaning pwedeng mag-feeling na may DSLR ako. Haha! Leica Lens baby!

June 17, 2011: "Dessert with @peejaylim At mr jones! I hope the milkshakes are worthy of their price. :) jason magbanua in the house!"

Oh hello best milkshake in the world!!! Oh hello there Jason Magbanua who's also eating behind our table. If given the chance to spend a lot of money in some restaurant, I'd go for this one. :) Try it Try it!

June 22, 2011: "Dinner at pancake house! Finally! Fish rolls attack!!! They have the best tacos too :D"

And Yes, I've been spending a lot of money on food lately. Worth it naman eh. And let me quote our EP, "Walang nakakapanghinayang sa masarap na pagkain". Period.

June 23, 2011: "Ang saya talaga kapag skeleton shoot. Yung walang agency. Walang client.
Just the production. Fuu-uuun!"

Akala ko walang agency and client. Yun pala.. 4 from different companies ang clients namin that time! Whaaat??

Trying to gain my love for writing back.

Toodles!

"June na pala?"

2011-06-24T11:16:00.000+08:00

"Parang nung December lang, busy kami sa paghahanap ng regalo sa aming monito at napilitang sumasayaw kami ng "Please Don't go" ni Mike Posner nung christmas party namin.

Parang nung February lang kasama namin si Jericho Rosales para sa advil shooting (Didnt even try having my photo taken with him. Torn between two reasons: A. Im shy. B. Im just not interested. Ergo No photo available).

Parang nung March lang hindi kami magkanda-ugaga sa 5 on going projects. Juggle to death! Naexperience ko pa maging bride for a day!

Project "Philippines" team @ Batangas

On our way to taal volcano!

Parang nung May lang, naranasan ko ang first ever shoot na may malaking rig. (Amazed??)"

Project "Shining" aka Zonrox Plus TVC

And now it's June. Next thing you know... Birthday ko na! I must write my wishlist. HAHA!

Been enjoying Production lately. I know I know.. I've got a love-hate relationship with my work. Siguro dala na rin ng stress at pagod yung nararamdaman kong negativity. :) But all's well. We get to work with different people per project at i've gotta say... Ang kukulit ng mga tao sa Production! Makulit na nakakatuwa. Hanga ako sa kanila. Ang tagal na nila sa field na ito. They are my.. inspiration? :)

Our shoot for tomorrow's postponed! Boo. Oh well! Next Project awaits! (SANA!) :D

The outlet Yard.

2011-06-15T19:24:00.003+08:00

This will be a quick one. I just need an outlet.

Lord, Lately everything has been such a blur. I dont even know why things like these are happening.

They say quitters never win.

Winning wasn't my thing anyway.

Okay. Do not Panic. Time will pass. Tawanan nalang lahat ng ito. Silence Please.

SSHHHHHH.

PS. So far i think my bosses are trying to train me.. as an Executive Producer to be exact. WOW. :D I've attended 2 biddings, as a representative for our Senior Executive Producer. Handy Dandy Ipod Touch Recorder you are heaven sent. Why? I get to record everything that the Agencies and Producer said and voila. Instant playback!

"Standby for Playback"

Oh yes. I missed blogging. Will post pictures soon too! :) Been meeting lots of people. Whoah! Now that's fon! FON FON FON! :))

Give me a sign..

2011-05-03T12:42:00.000+08:00

"Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice.

You have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something – your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

The only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking. Don’t settle."

I dream..

of being able to discover my true calling.

Maybe it's true. That during our younger years, we have been provided by many clues. Let's see, when I was younger, i'd find myself happily alone in my room beside my pentel pens, a thick notebook while drawing my very own cartoon characters. I'd always talk while doodling, somehow managing to create my very own story.

Even as a kid, I loved drawing. I love writing or making up all sorts of stories.

Is it really what I am meant to do with my life?

Still clueless. And yes, Im afraid to take the risk of quitting my job as a production assistant.

Will try something else during my free time. Like Baking. Or finally having the chance to come up with a nice tshirt design! I am excited to have a shirt sewn by the mananahi too. I'll do something that I LOVE right now. My way of soul searching + having fun at the same time. So that all the negativity that has been bothering me lately would be forgotten. Lalala. Singing a happy song in my head while trying to prepare for an up coming 2 day shoot.

SHOOT.

2011-03-01T15:50:00.000+08:00

The one who makes sure that I get home safe EVERYDAY

That 1 hour drive from makati to Quezon City is our ultimate bonding experience after a super long day.

Paired with a cuppa happy lemon milk tea and the sandwich guy's mushy bacon!

Definitely my answered prayer.

Thank You :-)

2011-01-06T17:28:00.001+08:00

Peej and I were feeling a bit down yesterday. He decided not to let these negative feelings ruin our night so he drove the car all the way to MOA. It was one of our favorite places since it always felt a bit chilly there during nighttime. We walked, talked and thought of getting some sugar rush. Ice cream always made me feel better so I suggested that we try eskimo bob's ice cream.

He got the "Dunk Em Oreo" while I ordered the "Ferrero Indulgence".

It was a tad too sweet. Maybe we should've tried their crepes instead. Nevertheless, i enjoyed it since I was with him and the moment took our minds off the situation.

Walked. Talked. Until we passed by a group performing in front of a crowd. The male singer suddenly smiled at us while singing and doing some sort of gesture which meant "tara join kayo dito!". We smiled at him and gestured back "no thanks". He pretended to look sad and stomped his foot. That made us laugh! HAHA! Never expected that a stranger would make us happy that night :)

After laughing our hearts off at MOA, we went to Baclaran Church. Just so we could thank the Lord for all the blessing He had showered upon us. And also, to ask Him to help us cope with all the stress we've been feeling. More strength please :)

We thought it would be a day filled with sadness and tears.
But instead, it ended with a smile plastered on our faces :)

2011-01-05T18:06:00.001+08:00

Yay for my new laptop! Hindi naman sa nagmamayabang. Akalain mong kaya ko pala magipon?
HAHA!

Dearest Asus,

Even if you are not a Macbook, Im still glad i have you and your 4gb DDR and Core i3 processor. Months of talent fee's were deposited to my savings account just so i could finally have you in my arms. ILY. And just so you wouldn't be lonely, im saving up for an itouch (4th gen). :)) Tigil na sa paggastos after that. Promise.

Love, Cams.

The year that was.

2011-01-05T17:56:00.000+08:00

Our shoot yesterday got postponed. It will be moved hopefully next week.
So there I was, with nothing to do since we're almost done with all the preparations needed for our shoot.
What better way to spend the day than by editing pictures of the year that was? Hello 2010.
I shall reminisce.

I thought of looking back to how my life was here in the production world.

Project:

"HEADPHONES"

"MOMENTS"

"PARTNERS"

"HAGOD AND SALUTE"

"BULONG"

"RISING"

"CURE"

"PASSION"

"RECO"

"FLOAT"

"PROGRESS"

"ESCAPE"

I managed to handle 12 projects in just a span of 7 months
Day by day, i learn something new just by observing. I enjoy watching the propsmen, production designers, director of photography and the editors do their thing. It helps me discover what i really want in life :)

This was from my first project "Headphones". Mababaw but I was really amazed with this "pouring shot".

"Wow, ganito pala yun?" Haha!

One of the funniest and fantastic director of photography that i've met. Here's the food shot for our San Marino Corned Tuna shoot. Major styling ang naexperience ni Tuna for this shot! :))

I just love this production designer. Sobrang funny nila ng partner niya. Kabaliw lang. Still from our San Marino Corned Tuna shoot or Project "Moments". The one with a whopping 6 boards :))

And who'd have thought na pati kamay inaayusan? Hand Talent here people! They get paid thousands of pesos for having nice hands. Makapag-pa hand spa nga!

My co-PA's here in a different story. Life would probably be a bit boring if they weren't here with me. Tulad nga ng sabi ng boss namin, kami ang pinakamakukulit pero magaling na batch ng PA nila. Aww. :)

Twas for the two stops over beauty queen episode. As usual, Stand In for the shoot. This is so the actual talents' makeup wouldn't melt while lights are being set up.

Still for San Marino Corned Tuna shoot. (Halata bang memorable ang project na yun?) I thought the director just wanted me to experience riding the defender but with white cloth all over my upper body. Yun pala, they're shooting the scene already. HAHA. Now i can say that I was in the SMCT TVC (hindi nga lang obvious na ako yun! LOL)

Stand In for Marian Rivera. Hello there tuna paella. Isa lang masasabi ko. Ang init sa ilalim ng mga ilaw na yan. Free sun bathing!

"Partners" TVC. Ang project na may 2 locations per day. The only time we had the chance to sleep was during the travel. Hoho. Kapagod pero sobrang worth it. Yam Laranas ba naman ang director! :D

Looking forward to what 2011 has in store for us! More projects please! :)

The unexpected :)

2010-12-03T12:23:00.001+08:00

I thought i wasn't ready for a relationship yet. For me it was all about work, making new friends and saving all my talent fee just so i could buy all the gadgets i want. Love never crossed my mind since I was so busy handling various projects per month. Little did i know that I would end up developing feelings for someone at work.

It started when I was given this animatics project wherein i'll be working with an online editor, 2 cg artists and a director. They asked for my number so that they could contact me incase they have inquiries. The editor and I were required to spend lots of times together so that I could check the edit. We'd be together before and after presentations for about a month. Funny, I found myself talking to him about everything under the sun. It felt as if he and I have been friends for a long period of time. His fellow editors started teasing us but I didn't mind them because I knew it meant nothing.

Days passed. The project ended. And he asked me out.

He was the guy who surprised me by making my "zipline" dreams come true.
He was the one who pretended to be doing revisions for his project, but called after how many minutes telling me he is outside my house.
He was the one who asked their office utility to deliver the blueberry cheesecake he and his fellow editors made just for me. People here at the office started screaming for joy. Fonneh.

And I have a strong feeling that I will bid goodbye to singlehood at the start of 2011.
Happy indeed to have met someone like him. Let's see where these feelings of ours lead us :)

For the love of november..

2010-11-23T15:18:00.001+08:00

Christmas is near! Yay! Which is why i badly need more than one project starting today until the end of December. I need more moolah in order for me to be able to:

1.Buy my Dream Laptop. And no, it's not a macbook. It's a Samsung R480 or a Samsung Q330. Loving the specs and features! :)

The Samsung R480

Samsung Q330

2. Kris Kringle with them office mates. Our company's going to have this annual exchange gift thingy wherein the budget would be a whopping P1500. I have no problem with that. I already have a list! :))

3. Give my mom her christmas wish. Mom wants to have lots of things done to her hair and asked me if it's ok that i pay for the bill. It'd be my christmas gift to her. And who am i to say no to the person who worked all her life after college just for me?

Life has been a mix of stress and fun. I can't really put into words how i feel right now. But im glad i still dont consider what im doing as work. Maybe because of the way people treat each here.


Ze Production assistants!

Two stops over team! :)

I got my own desk! HAHA! For me, it shows that i am no outsider anymore. :))

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Yesterday, a good friend of mine aka. my editor for my last project gave me a box of silvanas from Tagaytay. Aww.


hello yummy silvanas!

That was so sweet of him to even think of giving me something from his recent trip with fellow editors. I only got to eat about four of these. The rest were eaten by the hungry mouths of the other people in this office.

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And in this company, they call me princess. Haaaha! Whatzofunneh?

And right now, im craving for a large serving of white hat yogurt.

2010-10-24T02:30:00.004+08:00

I've been calculating my talent fee like crazy the past few days and still end up getting the same amount over and over again. You see, i badly want a mac book. Im sick of my very slow and somewhat useless asus.

I need a laptop wherein i can clearly view materials sent in by the editors so i can easily spot the parts that must be re-edited.

I need a laptop that can easily burn dvd copies for agencies or clients.

I need a laptop that is basically fast and wouldn't start "hanging by a moment" especially during those times when im really in a hurry. (I find myself begging and telling the laptop this very line: "Bilisan mo please parang awa mo na!")

I need a laptop. Period.

And the mac book will be the answer to all my wants..
I meant, needs. My birthday's near and this would be THE perfect present!
Sigh mac book. I've never felt this way over a gadget before.
You make me sad cos i feel as if i want you immediately and yet i cant have you.

DSNIOFEMJRFIOCVMJFIO why am i so EMOTIONAL.
I MUST HAVE YOU BEFORE JANUARY 2011 ENDS.

2010-10-04T14:46:00.006+08:00

Twas our director's birthday party last friday. The whole production family went to his bar at harbour square.

It's my first time to actually attend a party wherein most of the people i'm with are years older than me. I felt a bit uneasy at first since i was used to hanging out with basically people who are of the same age as me (Okay i am older by how many years). But when they started cranking up the music, the party turned out to be sucha wild night especially when the teenagers behind us started dancing like crazy.

"Grabe ang mga kabataan ngayon no!"

I am no longer a teen but i firmly believe that i am still young, ergo i am part of the generation she's talking about. Ha! Nevertheless, i wanted to let loose and relax. So i started dancing (while sitting down. I was so dizzy, i couldn't stand up properly).

After how many hours, shots of tequila and bottles of beer, everyone was drunk. Everyone except for the driver. We all went home happily sipping a cuppa starbucks coffee, while me and my production manager shouting at each other (wild!). It was a great bonding experience especially since im going to spend how many years with these people (hopefully! Yay!)

2010-09-30T20:13:00.002+08:00

The one where we stayed at the beach for 3 days and yet didn't have the chance to swim.

Free Sunburn! Cheers! To Tuna Paella! :))

2010-09-29T17:05:00.009+08:00

I've been spending more time with my digital camera for how many months that i completely forgot how wonderful it is to take photos using an SLR camera. It was our professor, Sir Jay, who introduced us to the magical world of photography using a film camera. At first i didn't like the idea because taking photos using a that kind of gadget means spending tons of money.

You buy film.
Have it developed after.

After quite some time, i got to enjoy using my this type of camera. Over and under exposed photos served as a warning: ALWAYS make sure that you're using the right aperture and shutter speed.

K. Geek speak. My handy dandy Nikon is there beside the dust bunnies as of now. Hoo. Miss You.

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In other news, i had this dream last night. A scene where in i was outside the halls of spcp, and yet the class which i was supposed to attend was media law. Nothing special. Maybe i just miss going to school (what's new)

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Im saving up for another link watch.
Im completely torn. I want them all for the love of swatch!:))

Will say hello to you when i get paid this friday.

Which one which one? :D

So you had a bad day

2010-09-27T18:07:00.004+08:00

Tomorrow will be our final presentation to the agency.

You see, we have this fully animated tvc as of the moment and im in charge of what's going on in the editors' world. It's not that hard actually. I just have to make sure that the editors get the job done correctly, feed them with human food, be the spokesperson for the team (talk to the producer etc) fix and update them with the sched. Sounds easy breezy.

I just hate the fact that the rendering of this 3d thingamajig takes sooooo long.

Reader: Really? How long?
the editor: 17 minutes per frame. I'm rendering 21 frames right now. 21 frames for a 2 second bursting effect. So 17 minutes times 21 frames equals = 5 hours and 57 minutes. Geek alert!

And then when you view it, director finds something wrong with it again.
Director gives his comments re: the revisions.

Editors edit/revise.
And then long rendering.
Repeat until everything is perfect.

Yes. Perfection exists in this industry. Thou shall not stop the editing until the director, client and agency is happy.

Sigh.

Dear time, I just cant get enough of you. I need you. More of you.

So im trying to enjoy my day today.
Because i dont know what will happen tomorrow. (hopefully there no war of the words)
Hooray for you kk donuts. You made my day.

Attention: It's now time to be one with them emos.

2010-09-26T18:51:00.003+08:00

This was the song that made the chuck and blaire moment very d-squared (dramatic and dreamy). I love it to bits. The feeling surpassed my love for cheese. HAHA.

Listen and be amazed. Itsabeautifulsong.

2010-09-25T18:32:00.005+08:00

As of the moment, I've worked with 3 different directors. Two of them were nice enough to be concerned about my training. My future. For the past months, i've been asking myself, i passed communication arts with flying colors. And yet here i am serving food to the agency and the client. Running to and fro just so i could find the effing setman. Did i finish college just so i could end up doing THIS?

And then direk's words hit me.

"You've got to be something more than just a courier. Lately, production assistants are all like that. Tagabili. Taga-sunod sa utos. I know it's a part of your job but young lady, i know you are more than that. Besides, UST ka. Show the production world what you are made of."

Both of them actually said the same thing. Im partly touched and partly pressured because i've got a lot of things to learn. So i made a list of things i have to know. It's like studying all over again, but this time.. It's not so i could pass a certain subject. Ganito pala sa real world. Most of the stuff you've learned in college are just the basics. Hindi lahat natutunan sa school.

And like what the directors told me.. My experiences and my mistakes are the best teachers that i'll have. Hoo boy. Ito na. Panahon na para magkamali at matuto :))

Basic lighting techniques, the equipment and their uses, the different types of cameras used in every shoot, the process in post production.. Get ready. Kung pumasa ko sa media law, pwes.. Chicken nalang kayo!

Im glad that after all the sleepless nights and major headaches, im still here. I survived. Prolly because i love what i am doing. Us Preparing for the shoot. The shoot itself and all the drama behind it. And then after the whole post prod process, you get to see on tv the product of all your hard work, sweat and blood. Tv production was my favorite subject during college. I interned in a production house. It's no surprise that the Lord led me here. :)

September: the month that was..

2010-09-24T15:15:00.008+08:00

August was very demanding.

But september.. Ahh. She was so nice. So gentle. So stress free. (SHE?) And up to now, i still cant believe that september passed by just like that *snap*. Only one more week to go and we'll all be embracing october. And i feel even more pressured in being able to actually achieve the "earn-70k-before-2011" goal of mine. Is it possible? Yes. Because impossible is nothing. (What). And because i'll have another upcoming project with a famous thomasian, that's why. Hint: He is famous. HAHA. K. Stop.

Anyhoo. I passed by the bookstore today and alas, temptations. I gave in.
*grabs, heads to the counter and hands the cashier the atm card*
One of my major weaknesses...

Colorful and artsy fartsy Notebooks.

I especially liked the brown one because it lets you create your very own "500 days of summer-ish" story. Minus the heartache, i hope. The downside is, it only has 365 days but the heck HU CARES. It's cute and It's a steal for only 150 pesos.

And because my love life is a coke zero right now. Non existent. Taking the backseat. Absent. Wala, tulog.. Im saving this for future use. Just incase cupid decides to do his job (finally) and pair me up with a hottie who has a big heart. HA-HA.

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I overheard our production manager, director and writer talking about joining cinemalaya. WOW. Fo real? If yes, then wow. I want to be a co-writer my good men! I've always wanted to be a part of that annual film fest. I want to put my brain into good use and pour all my creative juices by typing a very original story. And i want to apply what ive learned from sir jogar's scriptwriting class. Wee. Excited much! And i hope magkatotoo nga ang usap usapan :) CCP here we come!

Him (Posted 4 months ago)

2010-09-23T18:17:00.000+08:00

Sharing corny jokes. Chasing each other in public places. Eating ice cream. Cutting class together. Text messages that do not seem to end. Telling our deepest darkest secrets. Laughing while the rain’s pouring on our heads. Pizza day. Your crazy family. Sitting on top of the slide, talking about anything under the err, moon. Walking and trying to scare each other at 5 in the am. Making our school projects together. Hanging out by the pool. Watching home tv shopping network and laughing at their crazy way of selling products. Getting stuck at your village. Playing snake. Eating street food during class, on the lookout for our terror professor. You smiling at me whenever you pass by our room. Your crazy yet one of a kind laugh. Your super surprises. Dvd marathon. Looking at each other and laughing for some unknown reason. Mcjelly. Somewhat Hidden yet somewhat obvious desires.

Missing.. You are really one of a kind. Believe me.

Diary of the girl waiting for her friend until their editing gets done

2010-09-17T00:07:00.004+08:00

Dear Eggplant shoes,

(Tagalog nalang para hindi maintindihan nung mga banyagang pumupunta sa blog ko at message ng message sa cbox, hindi ko naman kilala. Shoo)

Napadaan ako sa multiply ng taong dati kong minahal. Naalala ko kasi na september yung buwan kung saan nagpasiya kaming maghiwalay ng landas. Siguro dahil hindi na kami nagkakasundo. Siguro kasi kahit mahal namin ang isa't isa, tingin namin parang hindi na talaga maayos ang takbo ng relasyon namin..

May sarili siyang reasons, at ako rin meron. Pero nung tinignan ko yung mga pictures, dama ko pa rin yung kasiyahan na nararamdaman namin nung time na kinuha yung litrato na yun. Bigla ko tuloy namiss yung feeling na ganun. Yung my nagmamahal sayo at may minamahal ka. Drama no? Pabayaan mo na ko. Gabi eh. LABO!

Wala naman akong ibang gustong ipahiwatig sa blog na ito. Nakakamiss lang talaga. Aaminin ko naging masaya ko sa kaniya. Salamat sa 7 months na pinasaya mo ko at pinaramdam mo na importante ako sayo :)

- Tapos na ang malalim na pagtatagalog -

I love...

2010-09-09T21:16:00.003+08:00

* Taking photos of random stuff while inside a moving vehicle :)

* These jelly lenses! I discovered these lenses even before grad but i was hesitant to buy since it was a wee bit expensive for a student like me. But hohoho! Thank you CDR king. Kayo talaga ang hari. They have an exact replica for a fraction of the cost. 80 pesos mah men. Okay endorser mode.

Now imma be out to eat some cake. Nomnom. Burp!

Ps. Dear Lord, Thank you for giving me 3 more upcoming projects. Sigh. Overwhelmed by your lovin' lovin'. Prepping myself up for a very stressful yet blessed month! :)

2010-09-08T15:17:00.003+08:00

"A sweet truth.When God knows you're ready for the responsibility of commitment, He'll reveal the right person under the right circumstances."

And im thinking, does God think that mom's not ready? Cause up to now, she's single with no man to spend the rest of her life with. YET. (Mom and dad have been separated for about 20 years now). How i wish she'd meet her knight in shining armor soon. For now, i'll try and be that person for her. The girl version that is :))

I know that at times she tells me that as long as she has me, everything is perfectly fine. But I want her to have a happy love life too. Hmm...

2010-08-24T23:47:00.003+08:00

I've been staring at the cursor for about 5 minutes trying to think of something interesting to write about..

HEY!
Why not write about the time when i cried to my boss over the phone?

It was really one of the things that i wish i never really did but in the end, was thankful that it actually happened.

*Flashback* I sat down on the editing room's sofa. I needed some alone time. I felt tears were coming outta my eyes but i tried my best to prevent them from falling...

Ring ring.. Boss calling..

Me: Hello (I sounded like i was really about to cry)
Boss: Yung service niyo pack up na?
Me: Yes mam, kanina pa po (i was really about to cry)
Boss: Oh, umiiyak ka?
Me: (Cant speak.. I was really crying)
Boss: Oh what's wrong dear? Tell me.
Me: (Hagulgol to the max for about 15 minutes)

Talk about total humiliation. Of all the people na pwedeng iyakan, siya pa! Siguro napuno lang ako sa sobrang dami ng ginagawa (Imagine trying to fit 5 projects for the month of august) plus some uber demanding people, super labong mga tao etecetera etcetera etecetera. I was fed up. I kept all these negavibes inside of me for approximately 3 months which is why i ended up crying like a lunatic (crying and then laughing at the same time just so i could stop myself from crying. Okay not making any sense).

But after all the drama, i felt relieved. It's as if a huge boulder was taken away from my system. Next thing i knew, i was still stressed. I still lacked sleep. Those demanding people still existed. But nevertheless, i was happier :)

c",)\ - me smiling.

2010-08-05T22:40:00.003+08:00

Today, I got engaged in a conversation with someone i havent spoken a word to for 2 months since i started working here at this prod house. And i actually enjoyed it since we talked about one thing we both have in common..

"Our love for writing"

He's a writer for rogue and smile magazine and i am amazed at how lively our talk was. Haha! I never really liked introducing myself to strangers nor do i enjoy talking to people whom i met for the first time (it freaks me out, especially if there's this awkward silence. Eep!). But i promised myself that i will break out of my shell and fake it till i make it. And whaddaya know, it wasnt so bad. He even invited me to help write for their TV show. Yihaw!

Hmm. Lately, i've been feeling down because of too much negative energy from people i dont even want to mention. Or else. Boom. So i made this list.. It's entitled "Reasons to smile" and everyday, before i go to bed, i write down something that made me happy that day. Like meeting someone new, bagging a new project or just simply being able to hop in and sit on a bus to Ayala as soon as i got to the terminal. It made me realize how blessed i am despite all the negativity that's surrounding me. :) Still holding on. Konting kapit pa, if i survive.. WINNER! Haha!

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It's already past 11pm and im still here at the post house with the agency and client. I feel cold, craving for something sweet, sleepy but trying to stay awake by checking other people's walls on facebook. Im fixing my schedule right now because i have 2 post prods and 1 pre-prod as of the moment. Dear Blueberry cheesecake, please appear right infront of me. I need you right now.

Funday.

2010-08-02T15:36:00.005+08:00

And for all you sweet tooths out there or people who just love to eat.. I want to introduce you to Yakimix!!!! It's an eat all you can resto at tomas morato.

27 people from the Cruz family tree went there to celebrate ninang's birthday. I wasn't excited at all.. I Snobbed the sushi bar.. But then.. i saw their dessert bar!!!! Holy Cow! (No photo available though. Boo me. I was too busy eating.)

Me: Seryoso pwede kumuha ng kahit gaano kadami?
Ninong: Oo. Kuha ka ng sobrang dami para sulit 600 pesos.

Yep, 600 pesos per head. But im telling you it was so worth it! Specially since i wasnt the one who paid 600 bucks. HAHA! Meet my dessert plate!!
I ate 6 slices each of them chocolate mousse, blueberry cheesecake and my favorite, strawberry mousse cake! I was in heaven (and kinda feeling heavy since i think i ate too much). :D

Next Stop: Haggen dazs eat all you can ice cream! I am now officially a fan of those eat all you can restos! Loony for sweets! :D

Ze future.

2010-07-28T16:50:00.005+08:00

During shoots, i always find myself watching the production designers do their thing.
They fix the set, dress up the talents and all sorts of creative things that their brains produced. And then i asked myself just last Sunday..

"Do i want to become a production designer?"

During our tv prod days, i was the prod designer for two of our shows. I spent how many hours designing the set, and trying to make it.. Turned thy thoughts into reality. Tough but fun. Our professor liked my sets but thought it was "kulang". She wanted something bigger! Well, dont blame us. Blame the lack of financial support. Haha!

Right now, im still trying to figure out what i really want in life. I want to be a part of the world of production but is being a production manager's assistant my true calling? Drama my gad.

Anyway, i plan on continuing my training here. I dont feel as if what im doing is really considered work because im having too much fun!! :D Even if the presence of moody people kind of irritates me, im trying to not let it get in the way.

Hoo. I believe i am in the right path. And that everything will fall into place at the right time. If i do suck at this production assistant thingy, i can always text that super in demand production designer and apply as one of her assistants eh? :D My love for art, fashion and shopping will come in handy!

I just needed to release these thoughts.. The thoughts of a confused communication arts graduate. Now off to do my liquidation!

2010-07-19T17:07:00.003+08:00

Calatagan, Batangas. 2010.

Kung saan saang lupalop ng pilipinas na ko nakakarating dahil sa trabaho ko.
Loser much, pero yung pinakamalayong lugar yata na narating ko is Baguio.
Har! Next destination: Subic! :) Lalalala.

Just now..

2010-07-19T13:37:00.003+08:00

I met my super close friends from UST and found out that they're all working in one company.
To tell you the truth, i kind of envy them because they're together and feel as if their work would be more fun. Or maybe because i just miss being around those goofballs! Haha! :D

Goodluck my lads! Makati people reunite! The new generation of production! Yeauh!

Fresh from my phone's memory card.

2010-07-15T14:44:00.004+08:00

And before i begin, I want to say hi to Dennis and Jojo. :))) Thank you for the time and effort you put into googling my blog. And yes, you both succeeded! Impressive research skills! I must now give you your award:

A stolen picture of you guys. You now have your special spot here!:D

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I was scanning my phone pictures the other day and found our thesis overnight pictures. "A content and audience analysis on the cartoon Spongebob Squarepants" What were we guys thinking? We could've chosen the survey type of thesis but no. We wanted something difficult.. Something CHALLENGING! So content analysis and experimental method it is!

We spent how many days watching a whole season of the cartoon spongebob square pants. Our eyes were bleeding already (Exaggerated for effect). Nevertheless, we all enjoyed it since we have each other. Aww. Not mushy.

The hardest part of the experimental method was.. Drum roll please... Waking up early in the morning. Haha! Handling those pre-school kids was a piece of cake. It was their parents who were really a toughie. Too noisy!!!

Our Thesis overnight session was something i looked forward to because of Miko's comfy room and the company of my groupmates. Yeehaw!

2010-07-11T22:50:00.005+08:00

I bought myself a v. expensive bag. It costs around 4...

Reader: 4K?
Me: No. 4 hundred bucks. With a 1 peso change.

It was time to unwind. I was feeling pretty down last friday. *MUST KILL THEM POWERTRIPPERS*. Which is why I decided to make my weekend (fyi, i usually have work during weekends. Sunday is not called "rest day" here in production) an extremely exciting one! How?

1. By sitting on the ab pav and beside the field.

I visited my beloved university last saturday. I asked my favorite friends out and treated them at kapetolyo (chicken inasal!!!), our favorite lunch/merienda/dinner. I just had to release all the negative vibes inside of me. I can't believe that one person could make me feel this bad. Im really thankful for having friends like them though. They're always there. No excuses.

When i stepped inside the espana gate, i felt giddy inside. I spent 30 minutes with this newfound hobby of mine: "Student watching". Observe. Observe and reminisce on how silly we were during college.

I saw our former desktop professor. She told me that she's not sure, but the school map inside every incoming first year student's folder was probably my design. I HAVE TO SEE IT.

After how many hours of chitchat and becoming each other's outlet, we ended up going home at around 10pm. I can say that it was the simplest yet one of the best days i've had. Thank you friends :)

If i was a nega-star, you guys are the nega-busters (bakit parang ang jolog ng term)

2. By roaming around SM department store.

And because i am now earning my own money, i can't believe how inexpensive their products are. And yes, i bought that bag, other important things and soon.. I'll be buying that SPF 75 sunblock. For Anti-negra purposes during our 3-day shoot. YES. 3 days.

Speaking of sunblock, i never really understood what those spf numbers meant. But for added info to all those who are clueless. Just multiply the number of spf by 10. The answer would mean the number of minutes you could stay out in the sun with no worries. Intiendesitas? Good. Teka, tiangge ata yung sinabi ko.

In other news, Tuesday is near :) It's like the day after tomorrow no? Pwaha! (Excited lang ser!)

Nerbous.

2010-07-08T14:55:00.005+08:00

"Okay so ang producer niyo is Mr. _____
Nako beware! Bawal ang tanga dun! Bawal yung tulala at dapat nakakasabay ka sa kaniya.
Kung hindi, sandamakmak na mura ang aabutin mo. At papauwiin ka sa shoot.
There's no space for mistakes when it comes to this guy.." - from different people

Okay. Salamat sa warning :)) Medyo kinakabahan ako ngayon dahil kailangan kong maging alert at maging walking recorder. In short, dapat naaalala ko ng eksakto ang lahat ng sasabihin ng producer namin. Pero ang saya ko, dahil yung pinaka magaling na PM ang nakatrabaho ko for my second project (and she's his favorite production manager!). Tinuruan ako ni Ms. Gina ng do's and dont's sa shoot. I'll keep in mind everything that she said and maybe, just maybe im good to go. Gusto ko sana matutunan yung tungkol sa mga equipments pero matagal pa daw bago ko malaman lahat yun.

Okay. Nilabas ko lang lahat ng kaba na nararamdaman ko. Shucks. AYOKONG MAPALAYAS SA SHOOT!!!! WAAAAAAH! Ayan okay na ko. Online sigaw :)))) Muntik ko nang makalimutan yung motto ko lately.. Think Positive! :D

Excited for Tuesday!!!

Kaenjoy basahin yung mga lumang comments ng mga tao sa multiply blogs.

Im still missing UST!

To the late lucy torres..

2010-07-07T13:44:00.005+08:00

All her life, she thought her birthday was July 6. And then after she died, we saw her birth certificate and found out that her birth date indeed fell on the 6th.. of June...

Hello lola! I wonder what you're doing in heaven right now. Sorry i wasn't able to greet you yesterday.. It's just that i was supposed to greet you at 11:59pm but i ended up falling asleep (okay palusot. Alam kong alam mo na i'm lying. I just forgot. Sorry) It's been almost 11 years. And still i find myself wishing that you're still here. That i lived not here in QC but with you and mom. I miss sleeping next to you whenever mom wasn't around, being able to eat the food that i want cause you spoiled me to the highest level.. Or us just talking about my day and laughing at the silliest stories. I miss you. I know you know that. I believe dead people get these pyschic powers once they enter heaven! Haha!

I miss seeing you in my dreams. And up to now, I still regret not being able to say the most memorable last words to you. "Ma, may palit ka ba sa 500?" wasnt exactly what i had in mind. It should've been "thanks for always being there for me, for taking care of me and that I love you with all my heart. That you're the best lola in the world" :) But your death was too sudden. When I got home, you were gone. So maybe that's why i cried for no reason while i was in school that day. We had some sort of super connection. You died, i cried (even if i didnt know it at the time).

*Teary Eyed*

I wish you were here. Attending our spanish class was always something i looked forward to.. Cos our terror professor reminded me of you. Senora looked just like you. Although you're her milder version. Haha!

I miss you so much. How i wish you were able to attend my highschool and college graduation. Oh maybe you were there! Spritually present. Beside me while i was shaking the hand of that person on the stage and giving me a warm hug. Yay! Hmm. I guess that's it though. I still want to say a lot of things but im running out of words. So happy birthday again lola! And i'll see you in heaven. Yeah, umaasa akong sa heaven ako mapupunta sa afterlife :))

Today..

2010-07-06T00:15:00.002+08:00

I enjoyed chatting with my friends... Through twitter and each other's facebook status :))

I got my barangay clearance. For postal ID Purposes.

I remembered my supposed to be plan.. Which is to join cinemalaya and enter my film entitled "Cinemalayo: A young man's journey to stardom". Basically a film about this guy wanting to be an actor. Haha! Oh well, maybe next year!

Im getting myself all hyped up and ready for my 3rd project. I'll be working with my friend, Nikka, and im hoping that we'll have a great time! No terror people please.

I will continue what i mentioned in my previous blog. *Ehem*

I know.. (Tagalog nalang. Para mas ma-drama) Alam ko kung ano yung mundong pinasok ko. Production. Sabi sa akin ng maraming tao, parang pulitika daw dito. Binalewala ko yun kasi wala akong pakialam nung mga panahong iyon sa mga negatibong bagay sa buhay. Pero lately, napapansin ko nga na parang karamihan ng mga tao sa profession na ito ay walang ginawa kung hindi magsabi ng kung anu-ano tungkol sa taong gusto nilang ibagsak.

Chismis here and there. Ewan. Siyempre ako medyo napaparanoid dahil baka pinaguusapan na rin ako ng mga tao behind my back. *Praningers akala mo sikat* Sana lang hindi. Pero kung oo, ay bahala sila. Hindi naman ako mamamatay sa mga sinasabi nila no. Hmm. Hindi ako sanay. Tatakpan ko nalang ang tenga ko. Pero minsan kasi ang saya makinig (nag-enjoy pala!).

Mahal ko ang trabaho na to. Period. Pero may panahong namimiss ko yung college life kung saan wala kaming inatupag kung di magsaya, mag-enjoy at mag-puyat sa dami ng ginagawa para lang maka-graduate. Hindi yung ganitong siraan to the max. Ito pala ang real world.

Welcome. Wala na kong masabi. Ika nga nila.. Go with the flow. Malay mo ngayon lang to.

- Wakas -

One loony LRT Night..

2010-07-04T04:27:00.003+08:00

This happened.

I found myself laughing big time! Crazy photoshoot :))

I badly miss going to school and wearing my 4 year old AB Uniform.
The library and the OPAC which served as our bestfriend in times of research.
The streetfoods.. the field.. Manong Santo Tomas ice cream.. Thou shall visit you soon!!!

Sheesh. Here i go again. The never-ending-reminiscing-machine!
You cant blame me. UST is love! :D
I spent almost 365 days x4 - 8 months (summer) and 15 days (christmas vacation) in that university. I have the right to miss it. :|

Dont get me wrong, i love working. You know, being a working girl.. A makati girl..
It's just that i still havent moved on with college and our moments together..
SNIFF! Why? I'll tell you why...

- To be continued -

"Ang dami mong gusto!"

2010-06-30T10:33:00.005+08:00

"I want to read Choke by Chuck Palaniuk"

Goodluck! Tuwing sisimulan kong magbasa ng libro, biglang may kailangan akong gawin. Ergo, lagi akong stuck sa first page. Paano ko kaya ito matatapos. Pero ang saya ko, i found a store that sells this book for 300 pesos. (Kahit na hindi ko talaga alam kung ano talaga ang totoong price niya, feeling ko ang swerte ko! HAHA!)

"I want to be able to have another project with our present advertising agency"

The people in Gasso are really really really really (sobrang as in super duper) funny. Natawa ko nung nasa elevator kami at naguusap yung creative director at bossing niya.

Boss: Grabe ang kulit natin no!
CD: Oo nga. Pero minsan nakakapagod na rin ang kakulitan na to.

They're not like your typical pa-sosyal ad agency peeps. They liven up every boring offline and online presentations. How i wish i get to work with them once again :)

Dahil sa kanila, namiss ko ang aming weekly accounts. Ang forever na pag-tawag sa iba't ibang companies para makasagap ng information. Ang puyatan blues sa paggawa ng story board. Ang mga nakakatawang subject ng email namin na dulot ng stress. EVERYTHING.

"I want to visit Forever21"

I've been seeing posts about the opening of Forever21 at Sm Megamall and i can't wait to buy something from that store. Why?

First of all, nauubusan na ako ng damit.
Second, payday is near!!!! Mayabang ako pag may pera! (Kidding. Half meant.)
Third, i want something girly. Ilang tao na ang nagaakalang im a boy at heart (aka. tibo). WHAAAAT? Seryoso? Found it a bit funny and a wee bit disturbing :))

"I want to become a junior production assistant"

Hindi naman sa nagmamadali. Gusto ko lang maexperience yung pag-handle ng pera. Yung tipong mababaliw ka na sa sobrang daming liquidations. I have another project. Thanks Lord! Hindi man siya TVC, still i feel blessed :)

It's rest day today. Finally, mababawi ko na ang mga tulog na hindi ko naitulog. I will self-spa. I will pamper myself. Kapag may oras, sasakay ako ng sasakay sa MRT at LRT dahil libre naman! Round trip! Game! :))

2010-06-29T16:35:00.002+08:00

Sabi nga sa radyo kanina, lahat ng tao ay may stalker tendencies.
Hindi ko ba alam kung bakit pero inaatake nanaman ako ng sakit na ito.
Kung saan saang facebook accounts na ako napunta para lang makahanap ng litrato mo.
Tadah! Sa multiply lang pala ko makakakita.

Right click. Save.

Ayan, nasa desktop na kita. :))
Okay narealize ko na ang freaky pala nitong pinagsasasabi ko.
Oh well. That's life.

Baggin' Saggin' Barry!

2010-06-21T17:26:00.005+08:00

I saw two of my tumblr friends post an article about what's inside their bag.
I found it purdy interesting. So here i am, making the same thing.
Who's gaya-gaya now huh! *raises hand!*

What's in my bag.. HMMMMN...

1. Pink Plastic Envelope - This was my first ever purchase when i got my check encashed. It contains all papers needed for production such as service request papers, schedules, receipts for liquidation etcetera.

2. Staedtler Triplus Fineliners + Gel Pens - I fell inlove with these pens a year ago and i plan on using them forever. Im never contented with just one color. The more, the merrier!

3. Tissue - For wiping the dirt off my fez. hoho!

4. Human Nature Lipbalm - Minty. Reminds me of Burts bees. For battling uber chapped lips.

5. Lip and Cheek Tint - I made this myself. HAHA! I found my original tint too "gel-ish" so i added a little bit of evian (that expensive water from the french alps). Poof. Body shop like tint for a fraction of the cost!

6. Concealer - I said goodbye to cream concealers and said aloha to mineral concealers! They're easier to apply and lasts the whole day. Girl talk. Blah

7. Lewis and Pearl Powder - I dont use them expensive face powders. Im contented with this 17 peso powder cause it keeps my face shine free and fresh without ending up looking like a white lady.

8. Disney Wallet - My closest guy friend Erjy bought this for me when he visited Hong Kong Disney land. This is by far my most favorite wallet! Uber cute :D

9. My Kingston USB - It contains all my very important files for school. Even our thesis is still here. Too precious to be deleted. Now, i use it for saving files needed for every shoot.

10. The production assistant's notebook - All reminders, important people and errands are written here. Im dead if i ever lose this. The cover contains all the calling cards given to me by production people.

11. Planner - This was a pasalubong from wado after their Dcatch Japan thingy. Really really cute design! Walang nauulit. Iba iba per page.

12. Rosary - This was a christmas gift from mikz. Guidance from the Lord. Knowing that it's in my bag makes me feel a whole lot safer.

13. My dream journal - When i think of something, this is where i write it. It contains my bucket list, my wish lists, thoughts for the day and even emotional outbursts. Haha!

14. Nokia 6303 - It was a birthday gift from my mom. The upgraded version of my 6300. I just wish it'd stop going cuckoo on me or else, i'd be forced to exchange it for a samsung corby.

15. My roller brush - My friend Ana and i have the same brush. Anti-fly aways. Blah.

16. Alcohol - adios germs!

17. Folded and Hung perfume - I super love this scent. I've been using this for a year now.

18. My Lumix DMC FS42 - Because im starting to fall in love with photography. We used this for our short film. Super linaw men! :)

19. Fibrella umbrella - ilang ulo na ang naisilong ng payong na to. Life saver during those rainy days-uh!

So for all those people wondering why my bag always looks jam-packed. This is what's inside it. Hindi pa diyan kasama ang everyday jacket ko. Hoho! And im hoping you enjoyed this mini bag-tour of mine. Byers!

Director's Cut

2010-06-17T22:11:00.004+08:00

While waiting for our director, Our production manager decided to treat us at Greenbelt..
She was craving for some yogurt.. So.. Red Mango for dinner! HAHA!

While on our way to ze yogurt store, we passed by timezone.. And then i remembered what happened 4 years ago. Twas the first time i went out with a guy and that was where he took me. At first, i was shaking like crazy. Not the epeleptic kind, just plain nervous. He even asked me why i couldn't look him in the eye while talking.

We played bowling, basketball etcetera. I had a really great time especially since i was with someone who i really really liked. That place will alwayse be memorable :) Lahat naman ng firsts eh!

I call this the im-walking-and-taking-a-photo-at-the-same-time picture.

Hey June.

2010-06-16T20:19:00.007+08:00

I am now officially 3 tones darker thanks to our 3 day shoot.
Say hello to my little friend. Mistah Snake! :)

When i started working, mom told me something that made me laugh.

"Ito lang ang masasabi ko sayo. Marami kang taong makakasalamuha. Iba't iba ang ugali. Matuto kang makisama. Meron pang iba diyan, may mga asawa na pero alam mo na. Ingat lang!"

I never took it seriously. Until someone started giving me chocolates and another started texting me. I just wish more guys would be loyal to their wives. Period.

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During the shoot, i had this conversation with the "clapper". He was discussing to me equipments that the DOP (Director of Photography) uses for shoots and their purpose. To tell you the truth, im still unsure on what I really want to pursue.

I want to become a production designer, a storyboard artist and now a DOP. I wanted to become a director but sad to say, im no longer interested. Right now, im still going with the flow and trying to figure out what I really really really want.

So i can go and follow what i really really really want.
i wanna zigazigahhhh.

Kidding.

I consider this job of mine as a stepping stone :) Up to now, im still thankful cos the Lord led me to this wonderful city & company!

It's a love story, baby just say yes!

2010-06-07T11:05:00.003+08:00

I've been trying to write the love story of my future hubby and i.
The love story that i will soon tell to my son/daughter.
A kooky story that will make people laugh and fall inlove at the same time.
I have one in mind. I wrote this last March 30, 2010.

Kape

Hindi ako mahilig sa kape. As in siguro sa isang taon, isang beses lang ako umiinom nito. Pero biglang natripan kong magliwaliw sa makati habang walang ginagawa sa production house namin. Direcho ako sa coffee shop at umorder. Ang saya ko sa mocha frappe ko.

Pero sa di inaasahang pangyayari, isang bata ang nakabangga sa akin at tumapon sa aking puting blouse and kape. Wow. Ang white, naging medyo brown. Nagka-design!
Hindi naman ako pwedeng magwala. Kaya medyo badtrip lang ako sa isang sulok. Nagiisip kung anong gagawin sa mantsa.

Hanggang sa lumapit siya. Tumatawa at tinanong kung okay lang ba ko.
Sa isip isip ko "AHHHH! May mantsang malaki lang naman sa blouse ko. Okay lang ako!
Normal lang to sa araw araw na ginawa ng Diyos. NOW SCRAM!"
Pero ngumiti nalang ako at sinabing, okay lang.

Isang tshirt ang iniabot niya sa akin. Kakabili lang daw niya nun pero tingin niya mas kailangan ko iyon. Tinignan ko siya at tinanong kung seryoso ba siya? Oo daw. Natawa ko.
Ayoko naman tanggapin talaga. Pero ayoko din naman maglakad ng ganun ang estado.
Kaya tama na ang pride pride! Tinignan ko yung tshirt.

"Uy ang cute naman ng design!"

Magaling siya pumili. Haha! Sabi ko sa kaniya na isosoli ko sa kaniya yung shirt niya
bukas na bukas. Para daw mangyari yun, kinuha niya ang numero ko at sinave ito sa telepono niya.

Hanggang sa napadalas na ang paguusap, pagkikita..
Nauwi sa alam mo na. Let's call it LOVE.
HAHAHA!

Hindi ko na alam kung paano tatapusin ang istorya kaya ganito nalang
bigla nalang mawawala!

PS. Hindi ko inaasahang sa prod house talaga ko magtatrabaho. Hmm. Maybe this love story would actually happen. Expect the unexpected nga naman. :)

Cha-ching!

2010-05-30T20:56:00.003+08:00

I will have my first paycheck encashed next week.
Hmm. What to do? what to do? I made a list on how i'd actually spend it.
YES. Im not saving all of it. Maybe the next one will go straight to the bank but not this one!

1. Treat mom.
2. Buy those pair of jeans that i've been ogling at for months.
3. Treat friends (that is if i have the time to hang out! haha!)
4. Get my hair rebonded once again.(ms. vain much)
5. Treat the prod house people.

My first ever talent fee isn't really that much. BUT! The next one is purdy high!
It's a 4-day shoot baby! :D I was shocked when i found out that my boss included me in that project. I feel so blessed!!! Excited to go out of town! Wahoo!

More shoots, more shoots! Yey!
I was hanging out at Post Manila the other day and noticed that almost everyone there has a macbook. HMM. I sense that i'd have one too ey? That is if i learn the art of saving.

Im here at the office right now. Yes, i still have to work even on a sunday.
But still im happy. Staying at home makes my head hurt since the people there are..
NOISY. I need peace and quiet! And i found it here in the office.

I am happily surfing the net and printing our story boards etc.
And updating my blog. Get ready.. You might get sick of all my BLAH Updates.
HAHA! :P

Last Day.

2010-05-29T19:56:00.002+08:00

Okay so approximately 11 hours ko nang kasama si mr. boy wonder in this cold room.
And we still haven't spoken a word to each other.
Only stolen glances. Lagi nalang ganun.
Still waiting for that moment..
Until he had to leave.

I don't know when we'll actually see each other once again.
It may be after how many months.. Or worse. YEARS.

Ang emo! BLAH! Pagbigyan. I've been stuck in this office for like 11 hours na nga!
The only thing that's making my stay in this place really worthwhile is his presence.
If he wasn't here, i'd probably just sleep or stare at the ceiling like a freak.

Eating Kopiroti.
Nom nom nom! :>

Working girl

2010-05-26T18:23:00.002+08:00

I am really enjoying my training here at A different Story.
The people are nice. My bosses are nice and strict.
And eveything is just so nice.

Ang ganda ng description right? HAHA!

Reasons why im loving this job:

- sometimes i do a lot of stuff.
- sometimes im not doing anything (ergo: break time)
- FOOD! We never miss a good breakfast, lunch, merienda, dinner, midnight snack.
- I get to meet a lot of people
- SHOOTING. I enjoy shoots! Still waiting for that opportunity to experience an out of town shoot!

I still have a lot of reasons in mind but i cant put them into words. Hopefully i get this training thing right and become a true to life production assistant.. And then get upgraded into becoming a production manager.. a line producer.. Assistant Director.. AHHH. the perks of being able to dream for free!

Anyway, it was weird. A while ago, i met this Production Assistant who was about my age and then i started thinking about the future! Our future! I had to snap myself back to reality. Clicked my heels three times and then POOF! Back at the post house doing errands. HAHA!

Hopefully im gonna get this PA thing after at least 4 projects more. Pretty please? Thanks!

Saw my boss at the post house a while ago:

Me: *Walking*
Former boss: *Looking at me and smiling*
Me: *Passed by and didnt notice him*
Former boss: Itong si camille! Hindi na namamansin porket nasa ibang company na!
Me: Ay sir! Sorry! Hindi ko kayo nakita!
Former boss: Tsk tsk. Saan ka na ba ngayon?
Me: Sa a different story po :)
Former boss: Ay, you're a different person na ngayon! Hindi na namamansin!

Found it hella funny. Missing my Fat Lion Family tuloy!

Wish #1: Granted! :)

2010-05-12T21:21:00.003+08:00

3 consecutive Sundays ko nang sinusulat sa prayer request envelope ko na sana.. before end of May eh may trabaho na ako. Hindi naman sa atat. Kailangan kasi eh. Ayoko nang manghingi ng pera sa magulang ko. (Demanding kay Lord diba!)

"Lord. Natatakot talaga ko na ituloy yung training sa malaking TV Network na to.. Pero kung ito talaga ang will niyo, go ako. Alam ko naman na you know what's best for me. Pero kung feeling niyo na may mas okay, dun nalang ako! Paano ko malalaman? Kung anong mas mauna, tatanggapin ko agad"

And tadaaah! Interview ko kanina sa isang Production House sa Makati.. Sabi nung nag-interview sa akin na ang swerte ko daw kasi bihira lang siya mag-check ng email. Sakto daw yung pag-email ko sa kaniya! Wow. Perfect timing :) Hindi siya actually interview, sinasabi na sa akin kung anong dapat kong malaman tungkol sa pinapasok kong trabaho at yung mga ayaw niya. Biglang kwentuhan nalang kami! Tapos sabay sabi na may meeting na kami bukas. HAHA.

At ang nakakatuwa pa dun, bukas na yung schedule ko for final interview sa TV Network na sinasabi ko. Talagang inunahan siya ng production house na ito sa makati. Ang saya saya saya lang! Walang imposible sa Kaniya! At Walang makakasira ng araw ko! :D

Dahil diyan, nilibre ko ang sarili ko ng isang girly blouse. Walang mahal sa bokabularyo ko ngayon. LOL. At siyempre hindi ko sinarili ang blessing na to. Dahil alam kong gusto rin niya talaga sa production at ayaw na niya sa recent na trabaho niya.. Tinanong ko dun sa nag-interview din sakin kung okay lang na magapply pa yung kaibigan ko na yun. Hooray. Pumayag!

Parang adik lang magkwento :))
Basta. Im really really thankful. Lagi na lang niya kong pinapasaya! ANO BA!!!! :))
Salamat. Kahit minsan feeling ko hindi ako deserving sa mga binibigay mo.
HUG! :3

Huzzah!

2010-05-08T14:50:00.003+08:00

I’ve been reading Bo Sanchez’ book entitled “40 stories of finding your One True Love”. Happy couples shared their love stories.. Like how they met, obstacles they’ve gone through.. proposals etcetera.

From a lesbian finding the guy of her dreams, guys who suddenly meet THE one just after proposing to another girl, meeting her one true love through a magazine article that she wrote and this woman who felt so lucky marrying a virgin.. These stories actually made me smile like crazy.

“Before we are born, God has already prepared someone for each of us if He wills us to be married. And that from the very start, He has already written our love story”

All the couples in the book did these two things that made them find their one true love:

They listed down all the traits that they want their future partner to have. You should be very specific :)
They Prayed to God. Prayed that they would meet the right person at the right time and that if the one they’re with right now isn’t the one, then ask Him to help keep you from further frustrations.

So there. Let’s all be happy cause that unexpected day will come. The day when we’d actually meet the person destined for us and who’d sweep us off our feet. Guys who caused us all these heartaches? Psh. They’re just stepping stones, The people who will actually lead us to THE ONE.

PS. the guy on the cover is my…. crush. HAHA! He’s this singer from The feast, a catholic prayer meeting lead by brother Bo. Gusto ko lang ikwento. Byers! :)

I heart Sir Jay.

2010-05-08T14:36:00.009+08:00

Ang kanal. Bow.

Ito yung isa sa mga favorite na shot ko for Sir Jay’s class. Got a 100 for this! May nakasulat pang “Great!”

Tapos nakalagay sa likod: Submitted by Mac Bedano. HAHA! Gusto ko sanang ilagay rin na Donated by: Camille Cruz. Pwede hati kami sa grade? :))

I miss photog classes and taking photos using our vintage SLR cameras! Isa sa mga subject na naenjoy ko! <3

The perks of being a lineman

2010-05-08T14:28:00.002+08:00

I just found out the other day that my 7 year old sister got to watch Kelly Clarkson perform live at araneta.. FOR FREE! Now how did she get in??

Turns out that dad (who works for PLDT) was assigned to man the PLDT booth inside and that he could tag along either a relative or one of his children. But since i wasn’t around, my sister got the spot! They were this close to the stage! *imagine me doing some sorta hand gesture just to be able to prove my point*

Anyway, i told dad that if he hears the name John Mayer and the word concert, it’s a sign.. It’s time to man the booth once again! Only this time, he should consider taking me along with him instead of my little sister :))

GAAAAH. John Mayer. *Drools*

How to feel good: the girly way

2010-05-08T13:13:00.004+08:00

Take a cold shower.
Wear something really nice.
Put concealer under your eyes. (makes you look less stressed)
Curl your lashes.
Put tint on your cheeks and lips.
Fix your hair.
Smile.

..Then surround yourself with a bunch of positive and kooky friends.

I believe that when you know look good or presentable, you also feel good about yourself. Superficial? NOT :) Ayoko na magexplain. Kaniya kaniyang paniniwala yan! HAHAHA. Tamad :)) There. Goodamorneng.

Why hello again 2009!

2010-05-07T23:16:00.005+08:00

I found my 2009 journal and read my "Bucket list"
I planned on ticking off every single activity written there before I graduate.

Let's see...

1. Overnight with the gang at Gian's house [X]
2. Treat my friends coz it's my birthdaaaay! [x]
3. Make a total stranger laugh [x]
4. Become friends with someone i don't like [x]
5. Join Ustetika [x]
6. SHISHAH! [x]
7. Reconnect with God. Become closer to him [x]
8. Reunite with the bean girls [x]
9. Kiss the hottest CA batchmate on the cheek and vice versa [x]
10. Eat haggen dazs ice cream with a friend [x]
11. Buy anything that my mom wants [x]
12. Get drunk. All by myself. [ ]
13. Haircut at Piandre or Tony and Guy [ ]
14. Buy a lot of clothes in just one day [ ]
15. Read a book. (never really had the time to read due to endless schoolworks) [ ]
16. Make Yema [ ]
17. Learn how to drive [ ]
18. Swim [ ]
19. Paint on a shirt [ ]
20. ZIPLINE [ ]
21. Tagaytay with friends [ ]
22. Play basketball at parkwoods [ ]
23. Cook something with friends [ ]
24. Go to Zambales. [ ]
25. Make a gag show with college friends [ ]

Cool. 11 out of 25.
Kung quiz to, bagsak pala ako. HAHA!

And since im still a bum, i might as well finish the remaining part of the list!
I plan on getting that "read a book" goal ticked off. Instead of watching it's movie version, Im gonna read "Dear John". Maybe it's be more dramatic that way. Lalala.

Camilla Hudgens

2010-05-07T20:16:00.003+08:00

Meet my long lost twin sister from another sperm. WHAT?

She sings and acts.
I draw and write.

Im the boring counterpart of Vanessa.
Boring yet somehow really really funny.

My friends will kill me if they get to read the last statement.

What's done is done

2010-05-03T13:26:00.003+08:00

And since my tumblr's no longer a private blog due to a number of followers from my batch..
I've decided that THIS (my first love bloggyspot) will be the chosen One.
The one who im going to share my feelings to..

And then there was closure.

Dear Lord,
Ang sarap ng feeling when you no longer think of the reasons that might've caused the death or end of something.. And maybe we were better off as friends. Really really good friends. It was a part of your plan. I have no problem with that! :) Ang saya lang ng usapan namin.. I feel so much better.

Emo? Nah. Thankful? Yeauh!

Although sayang, hindi rin naman nakakapanghinayang since we both are happier with our lives right now. Basta all i can say is that i am here for that person all the friggin' time. Hay. Let me breathe some fresh air. Ang saya talaga. Kulang nalang magtatalong ako sa saya sa labas ng bahay namin. HAAAAAHA. K. Excited to serve you this may! :)

I miss school

2010-05-01T01:45:00.002+08:00

It was a love-hate relationship. And then.. It suddenly had to end. Eventually.

Super miss ko na ang UST. Right now, im one the verge of clicking that APPLY button on every single job vacancy that i see on the net. Hindi ko alam kung bakit, masiyado na siguro akong nahumaling sa pag-apply! Sa sobrang dami ng inapplyan ko, ilang job interviews na ang hindi ko napuntahan dahil magkakasabay silang lahat :))

Sa ngayon, iniisip ko na sana nasa UST nalang ako ngayong malamig na gabing ito.
Nakaupo sa Quadri kasama ang mga kengkoy na kaibigan ko. Tawanang walang humpay.
Sa lahat ng lugar sa school, yun ang naging happy place namin. Dun namin nilabas lahat ng problema, mga kwentong personal, dun kami nagpicnic pag feeling namin mayaman kami!
Papanoorin namin na dumaan ang mga tao at kapag may dumaang *ahem!* karapat dapat tignan na lalaki, ngingiti kaming mga babae habang sasabihan kami ni Mikz at Mac ng..

"Mga Haliparot!"

I miss school. Kaya nga plano kong bumisita ulit minsan. Tumambay sa gabi. And just reminisce. Hindi nakakasawang magreminisce! Walang kamatayang pag-aalala sa nakaraan! ANG SAYA!

Anyway, back to my normal self.
I miss the room. The feeling of being a student. Na kahit mamatay kami sa takot sa media law, sa endless schoolworks and advertising plans, sa gutom, sa mabahong hininga.. (LOL) eh in the end, namimiss mo pa rin lahat ng ito! (Except the last part!) I miss the stress that school once gave me!

Will look for that perfect person to keep me company when i once again step on the cement of that Espana gate. HMM. Parang gusto ko ulit maexperience yung baha! :P

2010-04-28T02:53:00.002+08:00

Akala ko na kapag for orientation ka na, tanggap ka na. OH BUT NO. Hindi pa pala.
The orientation served as an eye opener for the PA wannabes.
Ito nanaman ako, inaatake ng takot. Pero alam ko naman sa sarili kong kaya ko to!
Sabi ko nga sa friend ko, gagawin kong human national bookstore ang sarili ko!
Para kung may gusto silang ipastapler, ipa-puncher etc.. Lahat ng kailangan, nasa bag ko.
TADAH!

Sana pumasa ko sa 2 final interviews :)
Random blog. I really want to work.
Sana magparamdam na ang dapat magparamdam na company.
I turned down this proofreading job (good salary!) for this production assistant thingy.
I do hope it's worth letting 17500 pesos go just like that *snap*.

Happy thought of the day:
Mr. Dreamy called :)

Job Interview number 3!

2010-04-22T23:08:00.003+08:00

Dear Lord,

Ganito pala kahirap maghanap ng trabaho? Yung mga gusto mong company, hindi ka tinanggap. Hindi mo daw kasi nameet yung "level" nila or standards. You experience rejection. Hmm. Alam ko naman na may plan kayo para sa akin. The least i can do is apply to death until i finally get the job! At pag natanggap ako, ibig sabihin nun eh dun niyo talaga gusto na mapunta ko. Nakikinig ako sa advices ni Brother Bo. Kaya medyo hindi ako nasasaktan kapag na-reject ako. I always look at the brighter side of things and just say to myself na baka hindi talaga ko dun meant na mapunta.

Okay so may exam ako tomorrow sa ABSCBN. Gusto ko talaga kasi sa production kaya pinagpalit ko ang interview ko sa isang company na wala kang gagawin kung hindi umupo at mag-english. GETS? LOL. Baka pag natanggap pa ko sa abscbn, pagkakataon ko na para maging close kay Gerald.. Ang lalaking nararamdaman kong meant to be para sa akin. :))

Basta im still thankful. Lagi kayong andiyan. :) Excited na ako! Manlilibre ako promise kapag nagkagtrabaho na ko! Isang stick muna ng fishball. Pwede na! Kesa naman wala.

Remember: it's the thought that counts! :D

The call! Finally!

2010-04-19T22:52:00.003+08:00

I went to Ortigas with Steph a while ago. She had this binder filled with resumes while I on the other hand didn't bring a single copy. I don't know why, i just didn't feel like passing any more resumes. For 3 hours, our feet led us to different types of companies. From High end companies to really creepy looking ones. Tiring but worth it.

While on our way to the hotel, she got this call from an insurance company. I acted like her secretary, scribbling every single word that she said. As we got inside the mall, I was the one who got a call! It was her turn to be my secretary :))

Funny, our interviews are both on Thursday. We practiced what we were going to say. Random Question and answer portion :)) I really wanted to work in the same company with her but i guess we have to go our separate ways. I'm really thankful though! Why?

*Flashback*
After passing my resume, i received 5 files from the company rep. They told me to proofread them. I think it's a test of some sort since that was the position that i was applying for. It was a bit mind boggling. Nevertheless, i sent the 5 edited files back so they could check whether i was worthy or not. I thought i made the files seem worse but i guess i did a good job. LOL. Lo and behold, here comes THE interview!

Oh yes. i think i have to practice my english. It's a private vehicle advertising company by the way and i can't wait. Maybe my bosses will teach me how to drive! OR! Major Perks! FREE CAR! HAAAAHA! Akala tanggap na!

wish me luck :)
Mock interview with mom tomorrow! Heyheyhey!

HMMMMMN.

2010-04-18T02:15:00.003+08:00

I went to katips a while ago, listened to my cousin sing how many songs.. Sat.. Stared at people.. Looked for cute guys (1 point!) and just basically listened to a lot of songs :)) I actually liked the ambiance of the place.

I imagined me and my friends were inside that bar.. that would be fantastic! We'll be singing along with the performer, sharing jokes, throw sarcastic comments at each other, laugh the night away and get tipsy! Maybe when i get my first paycheck, i'll treat them! So they wouldn't have any excuse of not being able to come with us (pinakagasgas na excuse: wala akong pera).

Anyhoo. I want to have a picture taken with my friend's classmate.
I believe we look sorta alike. Especially our eyes. WOW.
He would be like my boy version. And he's the one i was talking about in tumblr.
HAHAHAHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAH.
Boring blog.
So get outta here.

Rumdeedum.

2010-04-17T14:35:00.004+08:00

Back to reality.
But then i guess it's for the best :)
And though nakakamiss at times, ganun eh.
It wasn't the best, but it was good. Nice.
Loony and entertaining. LOL.
Focus sa future. HAHA!

Stared at picture. Smiled. Deleted.
Good news: Finally alam ko na din yung ending ng One more chance.

Goombye!

Oh yes, im the great pretender.

2010-04-16T02:13:00.003+08:00

"And maybe it wasn't meant to be.."

Sounds like some cheesy line in some cheesy.. Make it mozarella-ish movie.
Oh but no. It came from the mouth of a super depressed and recently rejected young (err.) lady. And yes, i just got rejected from this call center. I applied for fun, but it didnt really seem like it! Tss. and who said only boys end up breaking your heart.. Even call centers can do that nowadays! LOL. \m/

Maybe im just not used to getting rejected. Mom comforted me and told me that God has better plans for me. I know Lord, thank you soooo much! Im kinda busy figuring out what surprise you have in store for me though. Im such a spoiler! Parteh Poopah!

Anyway, i can easily write in straight english you see! But when it comes to speaking.
DING DING DING DING! Call the police! Got the case of ze wrong gramming.
Anyway, back to soon to be meant to be work.. I actually found myself smiling when i was typing my application form in this freelance writing site. There was no fear, no pressure. I felt really light and i never even cared if our dog was nibbling on my slipper.

And maybe im meant to continue this passion of mine. But this time, it will be my profession!
HAHA! Woohoo! I may not be a call center agent, but hey.. Maybe i'll end up becoming a freelance writer! We have all the crazy yet creative noodles while you guys only speak english-uh! (Bitter? Har!)

And the girl who only had an hour of sleep will logoff.
Goodnight! :)

Mapagpanggap na formspring:

2010-04-13T23:45:00.003+08:00

Ilang beses ka nang nabigo sa pagibig?

HAHA! Good question.
Answer: 6 times. yata.

During those times, i felt like the ugliest girl in the world. Lalo akong nainsecure and asked myself, is there something wrong with me? I'd mope around. Feel really down. But gone were the days when i'd do something stupid just because a guy broke my heart.

Even if it hurts, i'll keep in mind what brother Bo said last time.
That maybe it's God's way of putting us in the place that we should truly be.
Wag ipagsisikan ang sarili sa lugar na hindi ka naman talaga nararapat.

Everytime this happens, i'll just spread my wings and fly :)
Fly to the place where Im truly meant to be. The one destined for us. Planned perfectly by none other than the Almighty One himself. Madaling sabihin, mahirap gawin. Pero kakayanin naman eh. Diba! Im an eagle!

Apir!

PS. Hindi naman ako broken hearted. Trip ko lang isulat to. Ang ganda kasi ng sermon ni brother last time eh! :)

2010-04-12T18:52:00.002+08:00

My fil am cousin asked me one time.

Him: Cuz, is it okay if i dated the hot friend of this other girl whom i used to date?
Me: Hmm. Depends. How many times have you gone out with the first girl?
Him: Once.
Me: Do you think she has feelings for you?
Him: Well, we only went out once. Then there was a lot of kissing and stuff. But i dont even think she likes me.
Me: Well then, go for the gold cousin! HAHA! It's okay then. :)
Him: You think? Thank You!

Maybe he's not sure whether it's okay HERE IN THE PHIL (since he spent his whole life in the states) to date the friend of the one you used to date. Sounds purdy familiar XD

Hitler is still alive

2010-04-12T17:49:00.003+08:00

Sa apat na taon ko sa kolehiyo, marami akong naexperience.
Marami din akong realizations..

May isang instance sa college kung saan nalaman ko kung sino ang okay na kaibigan pero bwisit pag dating sa work. Sabihin na natin na magaling siya, kapuri puri yung ginagawa niya at times.. Pero dude, alam mo yung term na bossy? Yung ginawa mong P.A mo yung sarili mong kaibigan habang naghahari-harian ka when in fact pareho lang naman kayo ng role? Hindi ko sinabi sa kaniya ito. Natatawa ko pero hindi lang pala ko ang nakaramdam ng pagkairita sa kaniya.

It happened rin this sem, sa ibang kaibigan. Nakakainis rin pero in the end, kinausap ko siya and na-klaro naman namin ang lahat. No hard feelings. Pero with the other person in this blog, parang ayoko makipagayos. Dahil wala namang kailangang ayusin in the first place dahil hindi nga niya alam na ganun kapangit ang ugali niya pag dating sa trabaho.. Or siguro sa mga kaclose niya lang siya ganun.

And i hope na in the future, hindi ko na siya ulit makatrabaho. I have fun when s/he's around. Kwela, nakakatawa. Pero pag dating sa work... Men. Para kang si Hitler (mild version).

Naglalabas lang ng sama ng loob :)) Irritated much. Sana alam mong bossy ka. Kasi maraming nagsasabi na isa kang feeling know it all person.

Ang sama ko right? At least im telling the truth. If s/he asks kung siya ba ito, a resounding YES will be screamed infront of his/her face. HAHA!

Clean up yer garbaj!

2010-04-10T18:03:00.004+08:00

I fixed my cabinet today which somehow resembled a huge jack in the box.
When you open it, clothes suddenly pop out. (I am not kidding.)
I've been so disorganized for the past few months due to piles of schoolwork.
Nah, i just hate cleaning up :)) But now that i've got nothing to do, i had no choice.

I needed to clean up my trash or else.. Im doomed. boredom is out to get me.

Anyway, i noticed that i had a looooot of clothes.
I've got like three drawers full of shirts, pants and shorts etc.
I dont even wear some of the other pieces! HAHA!
I gave away a dozen pairs of shoes. Some of them i never even got to wear.
Im a shopaholic.. I used to be.. Back when i had the moolah. Now..
Im poor :(

I noticed that i got a lot of uber loose jeans. They used to be skinny jeans but as time passed by, they became.. Cargos. Har! I dont know why, maybe it's because i dont buy expensive pairs. I can only afford the cheapos. The ones that transform into another form when washed a lot of times.

Anyway, since i wanted some wardrobe change, im gonna have three of those jeans turned into shorts. Hee. Like what mikz suggested, i should show some skin since.. let me quote him:

"Matanda ka na!"

Yes. He's a Very thoughtful friend of mine. I dont even know why im writing this blog in the first place. AHHHH. I ate halo-halo this afternoon!!! Exciting. BOO.

Goodbye! :) Will post pictures of the jeans make over soon. (as if you even care) LOL.

For the sake of updating.

2010-04-07T11:14:00.005+08:00

I finally saw my grades.

Tsk. Andito pa rin yung bakas ng panghihinayang. First year shenanigans.
Na kung hindi ako nagpaapekto sa kalungkutang nararamdaman ko..
Na kung sana eh pumapasok ako imbes na tumatambay sa antonio..
Na kung nagaaral ako.. As in nagaaral talaga..
Malamang sa malamang. Cum Laude ako.

Argh. Maybe it was meant to happen.
Life teaches me lessons na... basta lessons okay! Wala akong time magisip! LOL!

Steph, Leslie and I went job hunting yesterday.

We passed 5 of our resumes to Production Houses.. Dun lang. Maybe because we enjoyed our Production Class so much :) We got to talk to our former boss and it was nice seeing her once again! We also saw our other former bosses once again. They were the same kwela and kalog people. Sana dun kami matanggap. Im still waiting for their call! WAH!

Im broke. I only have like a hundred bucks in my wallet.
Eh anong magagawa ko. Sana umuulan ng pera. Sana may puno ng 100 peso bills sa garahe namin. Sana.. Sana.. ZZZZZZZ.

photobooth!

2010-04-01T16:56:00.004+08:00

And did i mention that i enjoyed posing in front of this tall box like contraption??
Will rent this soon! Farty! :)

Malice in wonderland. The bored edition.

2010-03-31T01:35:00.004+08:00

Konting konti nalang.
Mababaliw na ko sa sobrang kaboringan :))

I want to hangout with my friends but sadly, they dont even reply.
I hate it when they do that.. Hmph.
I want to spend the night with them and laugh over the silliest things.
Watching them get drunk would be fun.
Maybe we'll even watch a movie together!
Just have this simple get together before we even start working.

But they're all too busy.
Hello friends. Hello?? Hello??

On the other hand, i was able to catch up with my girls!

HEEEEEEY! HOLLLEEEEEEER!

I attended Astrid's graduation party and i realized how much i missed them.
To the nth level kind of miss!

We tried our best to photobooth the whole night but our stomachs were growling, telling us to stuff it with chicken and pastel. Add some yummy cake too! The time we spent together was short, but i enjoyed it cause most of my batchmates were there too! Entertained much :))

No photo available yet.
Will upload asap.
I need a anti-boredom buddy.

SOMEONE WHO HAS THE GOD GIVEN TALENT OF BEING ABLE TO REPLY TO TEXT MESSAGES!

To do list. Extra soft copy incase the written one gets lost! :))

2010-03-27T15:38:00.003+08:00

Saturday:

- Laundry (wala na kong damit na matinong masuot. Sabong panlaba, my bestfriend for the day)
- Clean room (two words to describe my room: TOTAL CHAOS. Parang garahe na hindi maintindihan sa kaguluhan. Akala mo lumindol pero sa kwarto ko lang naganap. K. Stop)
- Go to this children's party (Yez. I have to. Mcdonald's party eh. Love ko yun.)
- Clean Zara shoes (The shoe that i borrowed for grad is kinda durrrrty. Parang katsa na ewan yung tela. Like i said, sabong panlaba = best friend for the day)

Sunday:

- SCRUB ZE SKIN! (Getting ready to "show some skin" sa grad. HAHA! Mikz' idea!)
- Press dress (No time for dry cleaning. Handy dandy plantsa nalang!)
- Put on nail polish (I dont even know why im doing this. Extra maarte for grad. Tss.)
- Practice putting on make up (And because im such a cheapo.. I'm the one putting on my makeup for grad. I'll try my very best to prevent myself from looking like a white lady who wrestled with the makeup counter at Watsons)
- Go to The Feast! (and thank the Lord for everything that He has given me! I owe him a lot)
- Iron toga!

Monday:

- PANIIIIIIIIIC! Hahaha!

Pre-grad jitters here. But still very excited. Kinda pissed on friends for not replying pero pag sila kailangan replyan. Oh well. Still thankful for them.

Can i hug all of you? As in one big hug na magkakasabay?

2010-03-25T02:39:00.004+08:00

And i missed them soooooo much. THIS MUCH OH!

Labo!

We had this highschool reunion last saturday. Kinda boring cause we were all just seated. Or maybe cause i got used to attending fun college assemblies kaya feeling ko ang boring.

BLAH BLAH BLAH.

i just couldn't help myself. I kept on talking and talking to them the whole time, especially to the boys! HAHA! MY BOYS! :))

(I was one of the boys back then.. End of story)

Anyway, i shared to them the "Annoying Starfish" joke and all the other jokes i heard from other people. Laughtrip sobra! Ofcourse we reminisced on the "asaran" and talked about the other friends of ours who were not present. Sigh.

Basta ang point lang ng blog ko is to say na sobrang na-miss ko sila.
Super kaduper. College is fun. But these people.. Iba talaga eh :)

Famousssssuh!

2010-03-23T23:09:00.001+08:00

Me: Grabe, wala akong pera..
Ana: Wag ka magalala, kapag naging direktor ka na, at cinematographer naman ako, maliligo tayo sa pera!
Me: Siya nga naman!
Ana: Tapos, magyoyoga tayo during the weekend!
Me: Ay feeling ko hindi..
Ana: Bakit naman?
Me: Feeling ko masiyado tayong in demand, wala na tayong oras sa mga ganiyan

HAHAHAHA. Us dreaming of becoming professionals :))
I really want to work naaa! Boring sa bahay. Batugan alert!

Happeh!

2010-03-23T21:15:00.002+08:00

May nabasa ako kaninang blog. Blog ng isang taong kilig na kilig sa pagreveal ng nararamdaman niya para sa lalaking matagal na niyang gusto. At bigla kong naalala yung pinost ko na blog sa multiply.

Oh shucks. Napangiti ako :))

Sinubukan kong basahin ulit yung lahat ng pinagtatype ko dun. Nakakatawa, obvious talagang ang saya saya saya ko. Pati yung mga text niya, todo effort kong ini-scan. Paano ba naman kasi, todo effort din siya sa pagkausap sakin nung mga panahong iyon. Minsan lang ako makakilala ng taong ganun.

Sinabi ko sa sarili ko na sobrang swerte ng magiging future wife mo. Iba ka kasi sa lahat. Alam mo yung hindi reklamador? Yung parang perfect? Lahat yata na sayo na. Wala akong makitang mali. Siguro kasi sandali lang kitang nakilala. Pero sa sandaling panahon na iyon, sobrang napasaya mo ko. Natatawa ko kapag naaalala ko lahat ng mga pinagsasasabi mo sakin nun. At kung pano manginig yung boses mo noong una kang tumawag sa bahay.

Nakakatawa na sobrang saya. Labo! :D Anyway, ang saya lang talaga magbasa ng kilig blogs!
Alam mo kasing galing sa puso nung nagsulat! Hoho :D Let's continue to be happeh.
Simula ngayon, lahat ng kilig blogs ko ay maaari niyong basahin...

Sa email ko. HAR! :D

Hello happy thought.

2010-03-22T21:55:00.004+08:00

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MIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
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Grabe Concepcion!

2010-03-21T16:09:00.006+08:00

They know all of my secrets.
My constant mall buddies.
My fashion consultants.
My crush-hunting companions.

The ones who never fail to give me their honest opinions whenever i ask for it.
And who would've thought i'd be this close to these two girls who i never really talked to that much during our first two years in college.

Reshuffling was a blessing in disguise.
Thank you Steph and Ana for all the wonderful memories! :)
OVERNIGHT!

Ps. Kahit lagi kayong late sa mga meeting natin, love ko pa din kayo.

Bingingers..

2010-03-21T02:15:00.004+08:00

We were watching MTV and saw Timbaland's video..

Me: Wow! gusto ko mapanood yung concert niya dito satin! Kasama niya si Justin Timberlake. Ang alam ko may isa pa silang kasama ehh.. Hindi ko maalala kung sino..
Mikz: Ah si jojo.
Me: Sino kaya yun..
Mikz: Si jojo nga!
Me: Grabe di ko maalala. Alam ko babae yun.
Mikz: Jojo.
Me: Hmm... Ay naalala ko na! Si jojo!
Mikz: Langya ka eh ha! Kanina ko pa sinasabing si jojo yun eh ha!

HAHAHAHA. Spent the whole day laughing at silly voices. :)
Hello happiness!

Ang saya saya saya ko!

2010-03-21T01:18:00.002+08:00

Love ko this :)
Excited na talaga ko!!!!
Pero di pa yata ako ready iwanan yung mga taong mahal kooo.
T_T

peace be with me.

2010-03-18T18:20:00.003+08:00

Dear Lord,

Sana uminom ulit si Papa. Kahit ngayong gabi lang. Kapag lasing kasi siya, dun lang kami nakakapagusap ng maayos. Dun ko nararamdaman na nakikinig siya sa mga sinasabi ko. Yun lang din yung time na nasasabi niyang naaappreciate niya yung mga nagagawa ko. Kapag lasing siya, ramdam kong mahal niya ko. Kapag normal kasi, tahimik lang si Papa. Hindi pala kibo. Ang madalas lang niyang sabihin sakin eh "kumain ka na ba?". Minsan naman, hindi kami nagpapansinan.

Ewan. Feeling ko papalayo ng papalayo kami ni Pa sa isa't isa. Lalo na ngayong mas nararamdaman kong mahal na mahal niya ang second family niya. Oo, minsan nagseselos ako. Ang attention kasi niya ay focused sa pamilya niyang bago. Tapos ngayon, narinig ko na hindi yata siya aattend ng graduation ko.

Kakaiba yung wish ko. Pero sana matupad. I feel like im at my lowest point right now.
Gugulo ng mga tao at ng mundo. Nakakainis, nadadamay ako. Ito yung mga panahong kailangan ko siya. Siya kasi nakakapagpatawa sakin eh, lalo na kapag nakainom siya.

Love, cams